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August 13, 2009
As I continue my feedbacking with my "long term TV friend", I give my news to others also, hoping some day it will be more private life whoever will be so called "real boyfriend" in my life. This talking with TV anchors has going awhile now, when other communications could be more useful, especially when my books are out and this thought reading going not just with one person, but in all channels and now finally they recognize it with me too. They should not blaming Mr. Cooper about that discussion that way, regardless who has started it, what I do not know, all broadcasting companies could speed up that communication with real interviews with me. Needless to tell, I am victim, I have no part of this why this has started and why it goes this way years without anyone stop it. Those who still thinking, it is 'totally up to family” - if this is family runned, – then we can say it, why we have courts, if family has power to do decisions. I am victim of domestic violence and that way they cannot decide alone about my future. It sounds very similar, if I say, some people just want I live in New York with sexual favors, in reality, I know, I am not capable to do it, in my case it have to be relationship. For example, let say, there are family members, who want their “pretty boys” spending their time and money with “rich and pretty” only, because that way family gains money and they do not have to think their youngsters feelings, because that not matter, like in my case, that example fits to my former boyfriend also. After divorce and years independent life, my life has been in hands of relatives, what I have never seen or who do not talk with me what they decide to do.
My recordings got attention and so far all what coming to me, is -go back where you came from! Same time, when I doing years investigation because I could not work same way anymore and find out my information is so important for many, because of this corruption of both sides, means in here in US and in Finland. I think, main problem is, person like me, who was top 5 student all the time, until this problem created so huge stress, that they tried dumping me category "mentally ill", it do not work, because it is not real and I am still able to handle many normal and complicated issues, example this video and radio recordings with detailed puzzle making.
Suomalaisille haluaisin muistuttaa, erityisesti niille, jotka eivät vieläkään usko että ajatukseni ja aivotoimintani on kopioitu ja reposteltu pitkin maailmaa nykytekniikan avulla. Ne entisistä ystävistäni ja tutuistani, jotka ihmettelevät miksi heidän syrjähypyt ja monien salaiset rakkaudet ovat paljastuneet minun juttujeni yhteydessä, haluan sanoa että en todellakaan pilaa kenenkään elämää kertomalla salaisuuksia - kaikki on varastettu päästäni ja olen kuullut että monet ystävistäni ovat vihaisia pikku seikkailujen tullessa ilmi. Olen edelleen sitä mieltä että jokaisen yksityiselämä on kunkin oma asia eikä kenenkään työelämää tai perhettä tulisi kiusata turhilla jutuilla, kuka kenenkin kanssa on ollut 20 tai 10 vuotta sitten. Tällainen mässäily on Amerikkalaisten speciality ja erityisesti ne jotka ovat politiikassa mukana - jotkut laskevat minut siihen kastiin, joutuvat aina sen kohteeksi. Minä olen ottanut asiaan "feministisen kannan, - nain ketä haluan", koska se ei ole toisten asia, joskin todellisessa elämässä pidän tiukan roolin mitä kenenkin kanssa teen. Uskon että Amerikkaiset ovat täynnä tätä ajatusteni julkaisua - niin kuin minäkin, jos Suomella tai suomalaisilla on siihen osuutta, olisi aika keskustella minunkin kanssani - kuka sitten on oikea henkilö siihen. Jos ainut mahdollisuus on keskustella sisarieni kanssa siitä, he jotka eivät ole sanaakaan siitä maininneet samaan aikaan kun menetin kymmeniä työpaikkoja, avioliittoni ja monet ystävyyssuhteet sen aikana Tämä nettisivuni on ollut nyt 3 vuotta näkyvillä ja on kertonut siitä tuhosta mitä tämä ajatustenluku on aiheuttanut ja miten se vaikuttaa muitten elämään. Sisarillani ei vieläkään ole kommenttia tai parempaa suunnitelmaa, miten tästä aisasta voi keskustella ja siksi katson että asia on kansainvälisten poliitikkojen asia ja heidän on otettava asianosaiset suoraan keskusteluun miksi tällaisen jatkuu, jotta kaikki mahdolliset syyt ja seuraukset tulevat esiin. Siksi, ettei tällainen toistu ja siksi että tämän rikoksen uhrit, minä mukaan lukien, saavat tukea ja apua taloudellisiin ja henkisiin vaikeuksiin.
Jos Finskit tai täkäläiset haluavat kuulla lisää mielipiteitäni - palkkaa minut radio- tai TV asemalle - voin räpättää koko päivän sekä suomeksi että englanniksi.
August 9, 2009
I continue this communication, because there is demand to keep up with all this international mess, what I certainly have different view than many others, because I am European (Suomi) originally and because of my citizenship with United States. I think, now when also short Finnish version about my 15 years experiences is posted on this same website, it should create some type of real communication, not just with my brain, what I still call as illegal thought reading. There are still stories in this southern area, where I still live, all my actions are counted as done by my sister, Heli, who did visit here 2003. I have not seen her here since then and there is very many "stunts", whose certainly has no knowledge or position as original sister and unfortunately "my original sister" pick to "serve Russians" instead Americans. Was that done voluntarily or by mandatory order, I do not know, but because of her opinions about this thought reading -she still not recognize it - and her endless secrets about how my issues were handled in Finland when I have been here. It should not be any secrecy, but reality is, she has done all her own way and I have not knowledge about it, same time, when I have taken my own actions to solve my problems with this very International mess. That is why she cannot be with me, it is type of domestic violence. My work still includes I give my details both side via this website, that way both have same information. Using Finnish, will get them understand I really came from there and I certainly know how regular life has been there 15-20 years ago and later, when myself was in working life over there.
Recordings are finished and this time some stories (read real life details) are in Finnish and in English too. They are not same, I do not waste my time and nerve to make it exactly same, because there is always people who comment about quality. I already see also this "over recording" had damaged some part of English version, what make it sound like I using "dirty language", what I do not do in these type of professional recordings. I looking for hour or spot in radio stations or of course in any TV, regardless "how I look". With my diplomatic details it could help whole situation. My earlier mentions about hour at CNN/AC360 is still unclear. I still hear "you can have it", but basing on my earlier experiences to go to New York and to CNN, it just not happen. There needs to be paper version about it or least some people coming to pick up before I reach their lobby or security. Without agreements and this illegal leaking, what this thought reading is everything goes out free and it has direct effect to my finances. It causes endless financial emergency, when there is no choice "sit at home and do nothing", because everything is taken from home (voice and thought copying) also and there is not much interest from visitors because of that.
August 6, 2009
I have happy announcement about new "family member" - well, it is not about this "beauty New Yorker", it is about a puppy dog, what has given me funny time and also some battles, when he wants to play and sometimes, I do not! I have been dog owner earlier and I know how rough big dogs can be, especially when they are very young. Now just over 3 month old pup is full of energy and other time the cutest and calmest sleepy dog. He has also put my schedule in other order, what I follow until he is old enough to take orders and stay quiet, when needed. It takes lot of patient and lot of training, but he will be good service dog, when older.
Other news includes recent studio recording for possible radio- or TV work, what I wish to do as it has been "in the air for some time now". Recording will be promoted for Finnish and US stations and I really believe, because I can talk both languages, it really has use and demand too. My position is still be independent as reporter or journalist and because issues are about my own life situation, I have reason and rights to handle it publicly also. I hear all the time "that is secret information" and should not be published, but because misleading wrongful stories are already caused so much trouble not just to my life, but others too, I see there is reason and need for my "own, paid (for me) broadcasting". It also serve already abnormal relations with Finns and all other international discussions. All interested stations should take immediate contact directly to me to get started and most of all - get agreement with me.
August 2, 2009
I was surprised, there was a demand for my updates, when lately this is updated much more rarely. Earlier I heard comments about my web writings causes problems, when I spreading these real life facts, what are same time, when I writing, broadcasted over many TV and radio channels. Basing on counter on my website, there are few real readers, when others getting my information via this "no pennies for me system".
Reason for delays is I updating my website and it is already visible with my real name also as www.amandabiltwater.com. Other big reason is, my 3 books are out and available via Amazon.com and I hope this valuable work, what I have done last years get some compensation, when people actually pays getting this all. Selling those books online is good way to get my information and same time good way to support me as victim of this complicated crime, what I still see this thought reading is, causing all my job losses, divorce, financial and health problems and difficulties with family and personal relationships.
My books are now advertised also in my original living area Finland. People areas in Salo, Riihimäki and Hyvinkää can have access to order my books and see this website. Maybe it also gives other view for so many, who has believed all kind of "monster and crime" stories, what I, as original Tarja Virpi A Makinen surely am not related at all.
Suomalaisten sanomalehtien Salon Seudun Sanomien ja Aamupostin lukijoilla on nyt mahdollisuus tilata kirjojani, jotka todella kertovat toisenlaisen totuuden tästä ajatustenluvusta ja Tarja Virpi A Mäkisen amerikanelämästä, josta todella on levitetty kaikenlaista epätodellista ja todella kauheita juttuja, joissa todellakaan ei ole mitään todellisuusperää. Vanhat koulutoverini ja työkaverini ehkä tunnistavat ja ihmettelevät, miksi olen tänne Yhdysvaltoihin jäänyt jos kokemukseni ovat niin kauheat. Heidän tulisi tietää pari seikkaa, ensiksi alun perin tulin tänne koska silloinen aviomieheni oli Amerikan autojen ystävä ja saimme virallisen työluvan tänne. Syy jäämiseen vaikeuksista huolimatta perustuu siihen ettei ongelmiani selvitetty kanssani ja se totuus, että Suomi on ajatuksiani lukenut ja julkaissut jo paljon aikaisemmin kuin tänne muutin on myös painava syy, koska turvallisuusjutut tulivat ongelmaksi, maassa jossa yleensä ei ole kansainvälistä rikollisuutta. Asioitteni käsittely jopa oikeuksissa on ollut niin naurettavaa että muiden seikkojen, jossa sää ja aikaisemmin annettu korvausehdotus ja tekemäni poliittinen selvitystyö on paljon merkitsevämpää elämälleni täällä Amerikassa kuin se että oma kotimaa painaa villaisella rikokset ja menetykset, jotka aiheuttivat urani tuhon ja myös terveydellisiä haittoja, ainaisesta hengenvaarasta puhumattakaan. Kun vielä tänä päivänä jopa sukulaisenikin laskevat kaiken tämän, mitä olen kirjoittanut sairaudeksi samaan aikaan kun monet artikkelit osaavat kertoa, mitä tämä ajatustenlukulaite itse asiassa tekee. Nimestä voi päätellä että se toistaa ihmisen ajatukset toiselle ihmiselle koneen avulla ja se todella tapahtuu ilman että puhuu tai että "suu edes on auki". Turha edes mainita, mitä merkitsee, kun kaikki salasanat and pankkitunnukset ovat ajatusten lukijoiden saataville kun monet niistä ovat ammattirikollisia. Poliitikoilla ja terveydenhuolto- ja poliisipuolella tulisi olla parempi moraali ja suunnittelukyky mihin tällainen vuoto johtaa. Tästä yksi kirjoistani, Until Now, kertoo parisataa sivua.
July 19, 2009
I working on my new website and this one has had a delay even for updates. It is funny, how busy I am and how little it brings money to my account. These last couple weeks has gone also with finishing my new books and now when first prints are out and listed at www.ebay.com, I can again try to concentrate something else as making new videos and updating this until new one is ready to publish.
Those, who still say, why I care what politicians says, I could say: I got only one life, they almost took it already and that is why I telling others about it too to get help to myself same time.
July 5, 2009
Most of people got over Independence Day without major trouble, so am I. If some people thinking I quit my political writings and presentations, they are wrong. Getting a new dog will give little break and mostly, change to my daily life. How people see this - they seeing that "little biter" with me, and he surely gets attention much more than I ever got. He also changed my sleeping schedule, what actually means, I finally sleep somewhat better, but timing can be whatever, because this animal has lived wildly outside and it takes awhile, when basic routines are in order.
It is also real, there has been all kind of plans for my personal life, what can combined under "getting some family life", what all is not canceled because of this. My waiting time for change has just being so long and this poor communication system do not give much chance to make exact plans because other sides confirmation always basing on something else than direct discussion, what has been long time big problem for me.
One idea what makes me always angry is this "analyzing my thinking", what leads situations like; she was nervous - so, we did not talk with her or she did not thinking him or it on that time - so, we do not give her mail or phonecalls or visitors or whatever! My comments for this kind of decision making is - GET OUT OF MY MIND, you cannot make decisions like this (and this "you" is still "unknown person" for me).
July 3, 2009
For those, who still try to reach my new SC number, being charged almost $2/minute about my international calls, when others charging under 10 cents, I decide go with some other than AT&T. My computer problems continue, but all of this not put down my years hard work investigate and inform about this damage, what thought reading has done. When this nation celebrates Independence, I do so too and hope, my work for International relations some day bring some normalcy to my life.
Happy 4th July!- I asked, I believed but so far not received!
Amanda as "aito Tarja, Suomesta Amerikkaan duuniputken kohentamiseksi - rauha Finskeille, rauha minulle!"
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My battle is slow and long term - about basic Human Rights issues, about privacy, safety, possibilities for work and income and own family - sounds like areas, what countries as US and Finland should not have problems!
Being now resident of South Carolina, in meantime, while waiting other things get better results, I start again presentations and first of them will be in this week. This time it is by invitation only and those eight, who got my invitation, should know, there is other people invited too and that, I still see it is not acceptable, same time when my thoughts are spread daily with media, there is still no interest to discuss with me, why this happen and what we all can do to stop that damage, what that doing to me and to others and that, how this all happened and how it can be prevented, it doesn't happen again to other person. I have heard many solutions, but because discussions nor solutions are not told to me at all, same mess just continue. Most likely some other people also get biggest money, while I still try to survive with disability compensation, what surely is better than nothing.
My book promotion trip to New York was very quick and with low budget, but gave some idea for some, I have important details and reality, what many do not know, including that, I live in SC now!.
June 22, 2009
I keep updating this, while it is not fact, how it affect to current situation in the world. If they still hear my thoughts and voice, as it been for long time - these logs were started for purpose to correct misleading and sometimes totally wrong information. My position in this issue is still "being middle and being whistleblower", what of course makes some parties uncomfortable, because their lies and made ups coming out. In long term, I do not see what advantage for example Finland gets, if they lie about me or same thing, if US lies, because there is always other type of true out already in the world. That is why I combine these books and "peacefully tell", my life has been long "chain of mishandled situations", that is main reason, why I appear to public in this week as Book Writer and Journalist. This time, I expect there will be other, "real" Journalists, (who actually get paid for , what they doing) who could listen me and see me alive, to tell what they see and hear to others.
June 19, 2009
Updating this has not been in job number one lately, because of ongoing computer problems and most of all, I have now two new books coming out to public. Other one, already announced about email feedbacks to Anderson Cooper and his TV program and other about over all other writing stuff, what I have done to website and around this political battle.
Other topic, what I do not want to comment is Iranians election. Only what I say is if people in that country want changes and current President continues as results shows, it is advantage to him and his country to serve that change.
I try to concentrate more to my "new life chances", what surely includes some bright eyes!
June 16, 2009
After 9 hours worthless "work", I got my computer to condition, where I can update this website finally normal way. Why I mention this here, is because I found out this "thought reading" device also affects to my computer and other devices and needless to say, there is other persons "in other end" , whose actually makes these troubles. I have seen similar problems with cars and cameras earlier, what of course can be easily counted as "tear and wear", but with these other unusual experiences, because of this thought reading device, I put puzzles together other way.
Well, I cannot wait more to tell about my new book, "Sweetest Taboo - Anderson Cooper", what actually includes my sweet and politically influenced emails as feedback to his TV program AC360. I can imagine, some people raise a question about his "sweetness". I think, that is personal opinion and I am sure many other girls agree too, his ear to ear smile is so cute. It is true, we do not see it very often now in his shows, but there is no that awful screaming and hateful yelling either. Meeting him once in booksigning and many times in TV show, I got "personal touch" once from his "behavior" on live TV show, what for me has been awhile type of "two way", when he and many others like to "follow and testing my reactions" for all type of joking and opinions. He has used also lot of my private life details and thoughts over all, in his program, even with names and other recognizable details. I do not know, was his response to report to my unusual Invoice investigation, what for I earlier looked contacts to get my solution to air with media. My invoice to The White House based on President's offer "to leave a bill to table" and my bill was that Invoice, what I created for contact point and combination of "what causes what".
This book has over 100 pages, some pictures, but so far Mr. Cooper has not show up for my invitations to get some other pictures than just about "his paperversion figure". While I writing this, I also see him at TV and hear his comments about my book writing, what still makes his little angry and wondering, why I doing that. This writing has been happened couple years already and it has includes very personal comments on both side, what I counted as personal interest, because "professional journalist" did not be interested about my detailed political real life stories. My real life stories includes also couple trips to New York and indirect marriage proposal, basing on that interest what he has had to hassle with my real life, what lead for my idea - why not, if you can make it real.
My book will be available first via this website and later from Ebay and other usual places. Purpose is raise discussion about this situation, I did so much effort to get this issue out and also "raised up" him with straight discussions with woman world, what we all can see, has made good affection for him - and I did not need to lie that, I like his smile, in his best day's, it is so great!
June 15, 2009
Waiting to get my computer fixed, you could go to see my www.youtube.com videos.. , what I have published 114 for now...mostly about these same issues! See them all from youtube with ID Numberonevirpi - realize, some hackers might over recorded and chanced my words - ask, if any questions coming up!
June 10, 2009
These are again those days, where these neverending electrical problems messing around my computer and give me a hard time to continue this writing. Knowing, it is mostly manmade problem and partially, some people wants to give image, "I got lost in New York", where I stopped by "promoting my newest book combining trip with "beeping for" my pen-pals birhtday". I do not know is it good or bad luck, when I always find out back to my southern home, what is not anymore in Georgia, as most readers might know already. So far CNN or others has not offered meaninful deals to me, while similar waiting game going on in private sector too. DC people are again informed and regardless my weak English and unofficial position my "middle of everything position" is noticed as good source for checking out details, as I have pressured leaders to do for long time now.
June 3, 2009
Being so long time victim of this thought reading mess and all involving problems, including computer problems because of all type of situations getting system up and running has again taken my time while more important things waits.
May 31, 2009
As my response to Meet The Press, I want to write couple words, while my long term "pen-pal friend" Anderson Cooper has been off from live broadcasting for days now. What coming on GM's future, as any company in this free market, they should run their business profitable way to "stay alive". In their case it mostly likely means to redesign their cars and ways, how their run their business. Running it countries, where labor expenses are so high, than products do not sell enough, I think we see differences life with highly socially supported environment and very low supported systems. Both has cons and pros, what should be balanced. If company's products make troubles to people or nobody want to buy them, fixes are necessary and damages could lead for bankruptcy, what is always loss for others too. After my bankruptcy, what is by the way finalized already almost year ago, whole idea about bankruptcy get so much attention, because many other countries have not that type of system at all. It is recovery system for people or businesses, who are crime victims or people, who lost their job, because companies collapses, what many times creates lifetime financial troubles, especially if any recovery system cannot fix financial situation enough soon. In my case that "enough soon" did not come and after loosing my last job. Because these political problems and because next interviewers told, I have have too many jobs in certain time period and that is why they did not hire, even so called "too many jobs" where couple days interviews for trucking jobs, what they always keep for all applicants. Because, I could not get back to regular working life nor start my business, I started investigate and write and make these presentations to get answers and solutions for my problems.
I could not stop to mention, my problems have been work related and many times reasons has been my employers or coworkers did think, I was not married when I came here to US or later, they think, I working for sex, what never have happened, because I have not get (or paid) a penny about sexual favors. It is in a law, employer cannot even ask are you married or pregnant or how many children you have on time, when they are hiring. In my case my personal life details, what spread by broadcasteres, what have not been ever correct, has been main reason for my job losses and troubles to get next employment. In my case this thought reading and broadcasting of them, created so much trouble in my working life and in personal life also, what any "academical adds for education list" could not fix. And why it could not fix, because even people in level White House and Congress use my personal thoughts to causing for me endless stress, how it could be different having couple adademic degrees? This has been political battle from start and now I am actively responsing between these two parties, US and Finland to get balance myself and balance to international peace. Getting a spot and paid talking time in these same broadcasting companies, could also fix my isolation and being wrongfully yelled about stories, what are not true or what are just normal personal life details. Did I tell earlier about my diplomatic work? I wish to get paid for it too, that will fix that one big problem, financial mess.
May 29, 2009
For my understanding, if some people have a disagreement that big than it is filed to court, it should be clear, there are several different opinions and most likely some of them are lies. In my case that years long story telling, what I found out, actually basing on very much for my brain activity, what includes all war and terror news from TV, comedies and sex movies, songs, books and all imagination, what my brain produces basing on what I see, hear, smell, touch and experiencing in my daily private and public life. It surely includes my TV watching and over-internet listening and also reactions, what TV Anchors have had, what are in my case sometimes very much "under my influence", because some of them reacts to my thoughts. For me, that type of set "TV actually watches me" is not possible to stop just with "off button", because story telling continue for other people and damages have been very visible at my workplaces and personal relationships, what both has similar activities, on and off.
I have used several methods to handle this type of violent activity, including reporting it to law enforcement, yelling back to TV programs, talking as "studio partner" about what they talking without time spot and contacting broadcasting companies to make real interview to let them find out how much trouble that type of broadcasting has done and what is the difference with my reality and their reality. It has also created very deep emotions with some broadcasters, whose appear daily and actually repeats my thoughts and keep talking for my reactions - and their own as well, what actually created some type of imaginary marriage, what I wanted to end for good or bad! For good means in this case formal marriage, what least some New Yorkers know, it is written to paper also and in case, there is no real interest, whole hassle can sorted out in court and damages dumped to my checking account.
Totally other topic is, when this type of damage has happened so many years and fixing it is not possible by doctors, what is already tested, they just make it worse, because it is international politics. Elimination such of person from real life with drugs sounds for me as same as silent murder. There needs to be similar procedures to restore my good reputation and ability to take care about my own life, including finances, than how it has been damages, to get that change for same audience. Being years chorus singer and now later years a Karaoke singer, it is certainly easier to deal with situations in front of people. Talking spots are not easy to find, when most of people still offer that "go to group and talk", what usually means, who runs event talks and others are quiet, until proper questions are made.
Because I have been long time middle of this worldwide yelling without TV or radios here in US has done even one single proper interview, I have applied and keep applying for broadcasting positions to correct that mess, what these storytellers has done for years and to improve my own life, because I have critical details and puzzles, what nobody even has earlier ability to put together and also for reality, courts have no interest handling my cases at all, if they do not have pre-proofs about my ability show facts and tell meaningful details. For guesstimate, after one month on daily TV hour, all should be different - if that type of miracle is possible. Of course, if I just stay "happily ever after to castle" and wrestling all personally with one person, it saves many others about that pain and suffering, what real court handling doing for people's life, who are involved in the case. My cases have been in the judges table for couple years now and charged parties have had a chance roaming freely and doing more damages, because this thought reading leaks all details out. Because this meeting with original participates never happened, there are situations where charged people know about their suits, but openly telling, they have no idea about anything. In my understanding, continues denies for meetings is a problem, it sounds same than "they knows about their fault" and that is why it should be handled on courts. Needless to tell, "torture victims", who fighting their lives by moving homes to homes and complaining about their "unhealthy rentals" should not be punished about delayed rental payments! "Terror makers" never tell upfront do it takes day, month or year until they finish.
May 25, 2009
Peaceful Memorial Day for all, as always. My years long work to inform about this international, very complicated problem has get some returns and results, while my personal life still keep sinking on this never ending isolation, what this though reading (FINNS = ajatustenluku) has done for years. People still creating parties for me and forgetting invite me over there at all.... I think, it should be clear now, I do not hear their thoughts and money, what should coming to my use cannot be spend for other people's entertainment, without my permit and participation. This "shyness business" has to get some normalcy, when I still go out daily and talk people everyday, yet singing in public places. My efforts to get that TV journalist spot, has so far not happened and I readvertise my interest for it this way now!
May 22, 2009
I continue this website writing and comments over "real and live TV", whose for some reason "picks" my comments for their programs. That could be called as a new type of communication or simply, crime against privacy. Why I do not make 911 phone call for it? I did already 10 years ago, it did not lead anything else, than comments “we do not handle that, because they do it”. In that time, I got idea, they really are not able to stop it or even discuss about it, that is why I do not pressure them unless more visible things coming up. And who are they – I think, that is the main discussion now in the media and why it has been done for so many years.
Some people have an idea, if you go to study or work to another country, it is counted as a crime against country where you left from and looks like that type of hype is involved in my case. For small country it can be problem, if most of people moves to another country and foreign people replace them. To preventing own people do not leave their birth country forever, should be they have proper chances for living and earnings even after long stay in other country. I can tell, it is very, very stressful process to start packing stuff and make arrangements for everything to be lived and work in another country with totally new environment and language. It was very stressful for me, but I can tell, it is more stressful to think do that all again and go back home knowing everything what was created in new country can be lost, because they do not see value of it at all. All what is left is losses and disagreements, who did what, because communication has been type of "secret for reason", what I cannot understand.
In my case my middle class office work life and living at aside of rich people’s life chanced for endless work days and endless wondering's, why I couldn’t keep even those, even I had already good training path and great working experiences. When this same political mess end my first marriage, it also prevented any new ones can be started, what also means I lost my chances for own children. Some people in other side of world just decide that is enough for foreign experience and tried to toss me back for nothing, without any kind of explanations or discussions. I could not believe these thought readers have had access for all my details and they still did not know, I had original Green Card and extension for it after I became victim of armed robbery. Same thing with housing, rental agreement was chanced for until I resign, but that was nothing to them also. Needless to tell, stories about living “with husband” and openly dating with other was just some other people’s lies, because on that story (we talking about year 2003), I was already divorced 7 years ago, what usually is more than enough time to look that next “who sees unborn children on my eyes”. Those people have never heard about “roommates”, what shares same house or even apartment without having sexual relationship.
What coming rules for proper dating procedures over 40’s. I think, it is little bit shameless to even say “I see my children in his or hers eyes” and it seems to be this country’s culture, what says all straight talk about sex and being naked is counted always for bad and even some type of “hookerness”. For me, it is absolutely shock, if somebody “making arrangements” to having child with me without dating's or even plans for marriage. I am not against having children, but it is against all financial calculations and against all humanity want a child without loving it’s mother. As any lovestories, it have to start that way and rest will be what all married couples are called – family stuff. It might be my broken parenthood or special job, what I did years, my destiny is being that who keep asking that famous question, Will you? In my equal world, it is step for new direction, if favorable answer do not show up. In meantime, interest can be hooked for business or politics and when times go by, whole clock will be reset again.
May 20, 2009
My days got suddenly busy for little time with new things and one of them is book writing and other is that same old "comparing just loosing money" I could get couple dollars, literally "couple" in my pockets. Updating website is still ongoing, so unless meetings and real presentations starts, I am here!
May 17, 2009
Short comments about issue, what some people raised about leaving " My party". If this is related about my former boyfriend in Atlanta area, we were already separated and I did look own place to live, where I am now currently, keeping touch with emails and returning calls if needed. Totally other relation is that ongoing video-, talking over TV and long term journalism communication, what I have done couple years now to correct public information, for fun and personal interest and for practicing for possible new occupation as I have offered for AC360 as part of my lawsuit against Turner Broadcasting. For those, who do not know, Anderson Cooper anchoring AC360 is program in CNN and CNN is part of media mogul Turner Broadcasting.
Having now own cable TV, I have a chance to watch all major news channels and that is why "old type of communication" has been reduced for minimum, because this "live" - "no permit from me home studio broadcasting". It certainly has increased my communications with news and also with Anderson Cooper, whose I still seek as major journalist partner and friend. For all International audiences and others, who do not know, you could listen their broadcasting free over internet all over the world. Follow the links.
Short version of his program, is available 24h on this website under "AC360° Daily Podcast" section.
May 13, 2009
I getting my daily life in some type of schedule, what is not similar, what it was on those “Atlanta day’s”. My days include still writing and videoing and that all has difference base, because of influence of cable TV. Most people still advising, why you look it if it’s not make your happy, fact is, others still watching it and get their opinions basing on, what coming from TV’s and radio’s. I have not been “as most people” for long time now and latest proof for it is this “talking with TV anchors in their live program”. I am glad it happen, but it certainly better, if I could speak face to face. Talking with home TV sounds as crazy as it is, but in my life it just be true. Totally other topic is, when it has happened so many years already before I knew it, there certainly have had times, when I am circling in my private home with very little clothes or no clothes at all and these secret cameras kept seeing and showing to others pictures about my beauty or – less beauty. Same time, when I was kept up with my bills and expenses by working hard and even studying, some people have nerve to pressure my regular life like this. Now, when I already has lost that normalcy, what is called “to go to work and get paid” and with this never ending stress, depending Government support as results of years tax paying with endless hunt to get extra income with Internet and other type of own business creations.
It is not a joke, I applied and actually requiring one of those TV broadcasters to let me using their fancy studios and real air time without peeking my private life at home with their secret “on TV cameras”, but so far it is like my earlier big city trips, I can go there any day if I have money and it most likely ends for “no meetings, no interviews and paper agreements”, because all information is stolen and taken from my brain without any discussion. My earlier almost daily written comments to AC360 show were good base to discuss about these issues face to face, what did not happened. Now, when I am finally starting make a book about this communication, refreshing it this way should lead for good reason for real discussions with involved parties. For me it is very important, because I lost my original family with this never ending “I do not know anything and I have never heard your name anywhere”, same time when radios and TV’s still using it with issues, what I have never being involved added with real facts, I could recognize similarity with my real life. Of course it is understandable, people in that little country do not want to be part of this international political mess, if they do not have to, but it creates for me situations where “nearest relatives and beneficiaries” keep disappearing in my applications too, to prevent those situations “Do not come here or don’t use my name”. I think, it is easy to understand, I speed up that “Will you…process” with suitable candidates, because in my feminist world, expressing my interest for closer company means, I can react too, as I did.
With these real life broadcasting stories, what I have been target and victim, it should be easier to understand, why I looking lifetime partner from those, who could handle “phone calls from President or from foreign leaders” instead my old school buddies or “regular audience”, what has little or no knowledge about my painful experiences and efforts to sort out this very complicated political situation, basing on my view, experience and world wide travels.
For any publicly speaking people, being well known usually means also, there are people, who make all possible efforts, all negative details coming up for all and most of times, they do not be even true. Fighting with this reality has been my life for long time and that way, I am in same boat with any official star or celebrity. Being victim and getting not paid for this, my appearance makes it, in my case very hard, when I am asked to “keep up and continue with fashion and beauty” with couple penny in my pockets. I can stretch a penny, but it is sad, my honest support and professional interest to be broadcaster and journalist, what basing on these experiences always ending for “wrong type of clothes and poor makeup's”. Needless to tell, I grew up with mother, who never used lipstick!
May 7, 2009
I continue this writing, because my move to another state rised so many new situations and I can see it again, many people making decisions basing on rumors. If those people, who make decisions about issues related with me only have rumors or third party information available, it will be new disaster, if I do not keep up with this writing. As I told, I have moved and it has taken lot of time and my normal stuff has been spread to boxes and some needed are still hard to find. It also was necessary to do some computer updates, same time, when I got finally faster internet connection and as all computer people know, when you update something in your old computer, it usually leads you need to change this and that and that and that all happens same time, when you try to get most important things first. Sleeping first three nights in the floor without any mattresses, you get idea, where that improvement has started. In my long term financial downhill, it means, I trying to get my life “on normal level” with very little expenses and that usually means, price hunting and some own creations, as I have done now. In these few weeks, I have finally nice bed to sleep, running internet connection and some food in storage.
I can see now, basing on traffic and noise level under my window at nights, some people thought, I came here just to get some secret sex – wrong. I came here to live my own life having own rented apartment and my own stuff, what has been mainly in storage boxes more than five years. Basically, it means, my main disaster started after I was unable to continue my job at Prime Computer, where all kind of harrassment expanded level, I could not concentrate to continue my work or even living at home, could not sleep at night and regular ways to get help did not was workable. Now later, I can tell – when it is already handled by media and reported to police, there have been threaths against me and my health and life and I did all what I could to prevent their “life taking efforts” did not be succesful and also, long time of investigation to produce income having own business, same time, when it was necessary to investigate “what a hell is going on”. For me, after almost 4 years full time job with same employer ,and perfect credit life, it was shock to loose everything.
Now, many people telling I need to go back with my old friend, when main disaster started, when he and his relatives wanted me to leave him and move out. I guess, it look good and perfect relationship to outside, because we did not fight, but it never ended for marriage, maybe because his relatives thought, I was “most hunted”. I was topic of media, not officially wanted by any and I kept up with law enforcement, just in case, they want to look for me, but it started be other way, they disappear, when I showed up. It was very hard for me, under rules, I did not have enough money to keep up daily expenses, I could not work and I could not invite anybody, if I did, they did not come to somebody’s elses home without his permit. Being unable to get job in this kind of situation, when stories telling my daily bus trips to city “was a job in local media mocul” and rumor about not getting out at night was covered with rumor, “they have little children” and cannot go out. Both of those stories are untrue, even kept contacting to some media stations and people, mostly hoping to get them to meet me personally to get more correct view to them and to their huge audience, but they never wanted or be able to do so.
This website has been up and running now almost 3 years and it has been visible and linked to many people and officials here in United States and in my old home country, Finland. I have told to my sisters, to old friends and many others, take time and read it and discuss with somebody, who understands English. Their most biggest complain has been, because it is not in Finnish, what they only or mostly understand, they do not care. If I only write in Finnish, my main and most readers are in trouble, because they could only use Finnish translators to understand, what I writing and in this situation is not good idea, when interest to read what I write, decrease with that reason and also being already abused with some Finns, I could not trust their translation in this situation. For my sisters, it is easier to find English speaking friend or party, what same time can report differences, what Finnish media telling in their daily radio and TV programs and what Finns can hear and see by International cable TV’s, what I can tell by experience, has included my personal details also many years now, but somewhat with other taste. Needless to tell, I did contact to Finnish media also, while I has my longer stay there. In that point of my investigation, I did not have complete picture about base problem of that media spread and reality differences between me and media. Giving correct information and details of facts, it has raised different type of discussion, what some people still try to dump to category, worthless news. Being character of most movies, TV programs, songs and even theatre programs and news, I certainly have a reason to give my view and I think all people know already, this discussion has gone that far, to the highest political level and to courts. Still some people requiring, I can only talk to my relatives, my sisters and I can tell, they have have access to my website all the time, so they should have my information, but for example, I can proof, how wrong they got it or how much brainwashing they have have, when they believe some body else over their own sister. This time, I put example about my sister’s letter, who still states, it is impossible to read anybody’s thoughts and she have never heard anybody talking about my personal life in radio or TV…. I already reported her earlier being one reason of my problems, because she lie and ignore reality and same time try to control my life in another country. Find from nearest Finn, what she writing…….
….Sen sijaan selitit samoja asioita, joita web -sivuillakin ja olen/mme ne asiat ymmärtänyt jo aiemmin. Me ei olla mitään venäläisille puhuttu asioistasi eikä olla missään naittamisjutussa eikä ajatustenlukuasioissa mukana eikä siksi voida lotkauttaa korviamme nettijuttujesi johdosta, siis koska emme ole missään mukana - sun on ihan turha syyttää meitä mistään ongelmistasi, koska meillä ei ole osaa eikä arpaa mihinkään - OLEMME VAIN SINUN VERISUKULAISIASI, SISKOJA, sillehän et sinä eikä mekään voida mitään MUTTA SE EI OIKEUTA SUA SYYTTÄMÄÄN MEITÄ SUN ONGELMISTASI, JOIHIN OLET SIELLÄ JOUTUNUT. Kun asuit Suomessa ei sulla ollut mitään tollaisia ongelmia kenenkään kanssa etkä ketään syyttänyt silloin, kun mitään ei ollut. Olit pidetty ja sua ei kukaan mistään silloin syyttänyt. Jos nyt jälkeenpäin väität jotain muuta, niin se ei ole totta, kun et silloin siitä puhunut. Olisit kyllä puhunut jos jotain olisi ollut - niinhän nytkin puhut.
Meillä ei myöskään ole mitään rahanpyytäjiä eikä itsekään mitään pyydetä eikä ole muitakaan vastaavanlaisia ongelmia. Elämme arkista elämää, vaikka emme 80 -lukua, niin kuitenkin samaan tyyliin kuin ennenkin emmekä ole missään tekemisissä asioittesi kanssa, väität ja luulet ihan mitä hyvänsä. Sen tyhmempiä emme ole kuin aiemmin. Muuta niin tyhmiä emme ole, että uskoisimme ajatustenluvun mahdollisuuteen - sellainen ei ole mahdollista tuolla tavalla kuin väität eikä varmaan mitenkään uutenkaan!! (kun kaksi ihmistä tuntee kauan toisensa ja ajattelutavan, voi ikäänkuin tietää sen perusteella, mitä toinen ajattelee jostain asiasta, mutta sekään ei ole varsinaista ajatustenlukua) Voit syytellä ihan rauhassa meitä mistä vaan, mutta emme ole mihinkään syyllisiä, mistä meitä syytät. Ja saat odotella miljooniasi, siihen asiaan emme puutu eikä meillä ole niissä asioissasi pennin/centin vertaa osaa eikä arpaa. Tee mitä tykkäät oikeusjuttujesi kanssa, mutta meitä et mistään voi saada kiinni, kun mitään emme ole tehneet eli jos sitä yrität, näet ihan turhaa vaivaa - olisi sulla varmaan muutakin tekemistä. Eikä meillä ole mitään käsitystä ja tietoa siitä, miten tai mistä syystä olisit rikoksen uhrina, koska me elämme "suuren lätäkön toisella puolella" ja meillä on ihan eri asiat arjessa kuin sinun asiasi ja mitä luulet. Jos kerran olet rikoksen uhri, me ei liitytä siihen mitenkään, etsi sieltä Amerikastasi syylliset!
Älä viitsi jatkaa tuota syyttämistämme, syytä joitakuita muita (ja niinhän kai teetkin koko ajan) , jos koet kärsineesi vääryyttä tai olet rikoksen uhrina. Emme tiedä mitään ajatustenlukuasioistasi - koska tiede ei edes tunne sellaisen mahdollisuuden olemassaoloa - sen verran viisaita olemme (emmekä ole tyhmiä), ettemme usko mihinkään tuollaiseen, mitä edes tiede ei tunne. Jos itse niin koet tai luulet, sun on turha sotkea meitä siihen mitenkään, koska emme liity siihen mitenkään, luulet asiasta mitä vaan !!!! Sulla on tolla tiellä ihan loputon homma, joka on ihan turhaa! Sulla ei ole mitään näyttöjä meitä vastaan mistään ja tuskin ketään muutakaan vastaan, ja/koska AJATUSTEN LUKU EI KELPAA OIKEUDESSA MIKSIKÄÄN TODISTEEKSI, KOSKA SELLAISTA ASIAA EI TUNNETA SIELLÄ EIKÄ MISSÄÄN MUUALLAKAAN joten saat lopun elämääsi taistella ihan turhaan vain todetaksesi elämäsi lopussa, ettei se koskaan selvinnyt....... Täytät ensi vuonna xx joten sunkaan elämä ei jatku loputtomiin - käytä se johoknin muuhun kuin loputtomaan miljoonien metsästykseen ja maailmanpolitiikan pyörittämiseen mielessäsi, kun et nyt kuitenkaan ole Senaatissa!!! Netissä kirjoittamasi asiat eivät sinänsä ole oikeuskelpoisia, koska aina pitää olla näyttö ja ihmiset todistamassa - ketkä?? ja me ei voida todistaa asioista, joista emme mitään tiedä. Sinä sen sijaan syytät meitä valehtelijoiksi, joka on kunnianloukkaus.
She basically says, they do not know anything and thought reading is impossible and they do not want to be part of my troubled life. That should be clear for some people here - do not press me to deal with these people, because they do not really know, care or support me, that is why I reaching new marriage to get my own loving family. Proposals are already “announced”, they did not comment even to visit to possible weddings… most likely, they are the biggest troublemakers in my life, because of their secrecy. Publishing part of my sister’s letter, I created new reason for Finnish leaders to handle this issue with politicians, because I have done lot of work to keep this issue informed to both sides and with examples of real life experiences, it after all is problems, with cultural differences between Finns and Americans and of course, because this started already, when I was in Finland, there is no way to complain only America, because it started in Finland already or no way to complain only Finns, because US had all chances to respond my contacts, when I looked help for this problem, starting 1995. There has never been discussion with me about this thought reading with any party, I found out and publish it, it happens and I require compensations for my losses, what mainly are health and financial related, but of course also huge pain loosing regular job life, marriage, frienships and most of all, chances peaceful, full life and own children. If some leaders have nerve to state, “she cannot have more boyfriends or jobs”, is there some limits of them for other people, or is that type of limit done for purpose of jealously. For me, it looks like of situation – “ I do not want to meet, but I make sure anybody else can meet you either”. Shame on You… Where are human rights!
April 30,2009
My several emails, letters, faxes and phonecalls earlier to The President, Pentagon, FBI, CIA , Congress and many other related was not done without reason and without any feedback. Those, who had followed my website news may has notice, there has been long delay and over all short messages later. First reason has been, I finally got small compensation being officially disabled about that damage, what this thought reading has done to my life and that lead finally chance to move own place, what this time is little apartment. Why I keep telling these personal details to high level leaders is done for same reason, why I did started writing in first place - getting this international battle handled properly, faster and prevent more damage to my life or other peoples life or relationships, what unfortunately has not been prevented with still so poor communication related with me and about my issues. It is real, many problems basing on this thought reading - my thoughts are spread worldwide without any instance would be able or willing to stop it. Those, who still think it is not cause any harm, could tell me first about how I should pay my bills being not able to get work, keep work or business income, because all information leaks to others - good and bad people. My main interest is not to find who doing it, it is absolutely international problem and needs to handle with international groups. In first meaning, it is human rights problem, because I have been target of physical, mental and financial attacks, what all has done some damage, leading me this " lazy looking " , always so nervous and stressful life. Those, who still looking for some unpaid bills, I always ask, what was the reason to blame me (and now I can tell they did read my thoughts) at my work in 1995,96, 97 etc. what always lead for my job loss, because of stress - never, because thefts or other reasons, what rumors telling. I have also reported that same problem, ruining my life with lies and wrong information to Finnish police department, being originally Finnish citizen, now US citizen, getting not any investigation or results or payments from them so far. I have been middle of this international mess so long time and I see, I always has puzzles to put together, what leads for what and answers, why things are how they are, and how they can be better. Because I am not officially hired for any government position - regardless, I applied several times to The White House under previous Administration and with my endless reporting after "asked to leave a bill to table", I wanted to get answers and solutions for my very complicated situation, without so far getting other results than disability compensation, what is good start, but very questionable for some people, because my disablity is not visible and some people still continue that yelling - how lazy she is - she do not work. It has not been my choice. My work has now being to report and tell about my experience and get that issue to all sides to get peaceful solution. So far, my honest efforts to get real air time on "real TV" station has not happen and in reality, I using my chances to talk over regular TV programs if my thoughts still come out from their usual programs, as they do from all channels without any permits or royalties to me. That is why I want to combine my personal interest with people, who has experience and ability handling this huge pressure, what this type of publicity brings with, what surely creates stress, what some people cannot handle a day. My ability to discuss about this is now better, because of my many years practise and knowledge, it really coming from my brain AND I CANNOT STOP IT. Who can, is the question and why it is not done yet, without hurting my health and finances? Preventing other similar cases coming up after me, should be easy to understand, I, being able to discuss internationally about this is only person, who could tell exactly, what is involved of this and what information might be needed to solve this whole mess with all related parties. I am still available for this peacemaking use, being and living here in United States. Having years knowledge of life of European countries, what Finland also is, should be counted as advantage for both sides, because my calculation coming out to both sides and facts are, safety issues around this problem are big. Choosing location, where it not create new international rallies for hates or religious ideas is one point, when we discussing, where I should be and what I doing mean time, when others wondering do they believe what I say or not.
April 27, 2009 - NEWS UPDATE!! There has been delay for all updates and articles because of my moving to another southern location has taken most of my time. Getting internet connection and all other updates up and running takes time too, but I continue my regular updates soon, unless broadcasting companies let me talking directly, what so far has not happened! My battle with media companies continue as request to get (paid) hour at AC360!!?
Those, who still think "my sisters" can run my life from other country, without discussing with me, I have one comment - they are sick, even more ill, if they look help from eastern neighbors instead EU. I am private and free person to handle my own issues, but being so abused and crime victim, my private life is in hands of politicians. That is why I see rights to participate politics in United States (=US).
April 2, 2009
In time of G20 summit in Europe, I want to write couple words, even I am not there. I should be there finally to give my opinions and facts personally, but I know, without proper invitation and position it just that same, people blaming with nasty words, even “any hookerness”, do not really apply for me. I can dump that type of mess anytime with question, what reason somebody has take a videos or audios about my bedroom habits, with my wedded husband around 1995? All other similar secret screenings, including counting how many guys have ever kissed me, is useless nonsense and I count it as disturbing my privacy and ruining my reputation, what I really have reported to police and to courts in two countries, without still getting proper handling and compensation.
As my anchor friend broadcasted today, is good I am not there today, because there are so many protesters. I still wondering, where their protests basing on, when I have never stated, I want this type of mess continue and I have always told, I born in Finland, grew up in little farm and I got invitation to apply for Green Card, what we both with my husband filled up and received after proof of Finnish American embassy interview. In that point, they knew about my income level, my education, level of English skills and also about my loan for apartment. If application process do not care about things like these, they should not raise up problems later. Everything was taking care, but with these cultural differences and hate of immigrants, many things going other way than expected. That includes, my husband did not support me with correct information, with communication and solutions, when I had problems at my workplace. Only advice was, just stay there. My hearth had physical pain and stress was so awful, when I heard these stories about stolen stuff, what they rumoring with my name and face to face said, we do not talk about you. That was start of my computer career here, what I wanted to continue and it did, until other company at 2003 wanted pressure me out with their password cracking system, imaginary thief stories and Russian husbands, what all stories I sent to court, because I am innocent and victim and most of their stories basing on stories, what my previous employers made up.
If this all mess is run some Finnish work unions or government inspectors, I am very surprised, if anybody of them has nerve to hassle with legal workers in America. Idea, you have problems, because you do not have work unions, cannot be fixed by made up lies and made up thief stories. Some way, they created image of me as some type of slave, what they do not even want to be counted of their citizen. For some reason, Finns want to give picture, all Finns are rich and working in good position. When I left 1994 from Finland, I was not unemployed, but 25% of their other people were. It is huge number, even they all get some money, creating picture about “it is better being unemployed than work with low dollars”, did not fit for my situation, because I was required to work being with Green card and I was needed to work, to fill gas tank and put food to table, when my husband invested to get cars and all other needed stuff first. And most of all, I wanted to work, to get more skills and new friends. That was trouble at first, next was to start education same time when working fulltime and with two jobs. That image should tell, we were as regular low income Americans, battling about same jobs and same housing, what sounds very much as normal life here.
Most of Finns coming here with Finnish companies, with their Per Diem thousands and non working housewives. Their situation is not comparable with mine, but should not be reason for total dumping, as these local Finns has done for me. I was in good occupation in Finland and I had many years working experience. My career change just happened to happen few years before I got this opportunity to work and move to United States and some people still “punishing me”, when I left my breeding job and even, when I left my government job. Now later, I can tell, I have been under their secret listening already in that time and “some clevers speed up my move” to another country, US, where that problem really came up for me first time, what American doctors or officials did not care to handle with me at all, even they knew, there was information leak like this.
All slave stories most likely basing on imagination, where I have lived aside by several, most biggest farms and estates in Finland by working for them as animal care taker or just living in their property as a renter, as I did with this last one. I was top student at my 2 years Technical school, what some people counting as College here, what included learn to skills to take care about all issues at farm. Needless to tell, farms are businesses, what get money from products, what they produce and calculating economical solutions is very important part of their business plans. Because of northern location of Finland, many farmers calculated, it is best business, just stop everything and take government money for doing nothing, especially after EU started counting, where it is suitable to plan and what. I did not have interest to run this type of business, what totally basing on politics and in real, is so hard work, especially when proper spouse “did not show up”, regardless my country wide dancing trips, what can be counted “I am available for marriage”, not for just sex, what my some dancing partners learned very quickly.
For conclusion for all Europeans and especially for Finns, as I stated earlier in my contacts to Finnish Prime Minister, I want to live in United States way, what you Finns and Europeans do not have to be shamed and I expect my former country, Finland make actions, what I do not have to shamed. Being born to poor family, what really suffered badly about World War II, what mostly mean for little children did not have any grandparents around at all, because they all were dead or in other country. That also mean, not having many friends and it is easy to see, that all repeats for my life, even I was “Top 5” student at my schools and employed all the time in Finland, before I moved here.
Why that all repeats in my life, basing on poor veteran care and poor presentation skills education level in Finland. They expect students behaving well, answering questions in only their turn and staying quiet in meantime. Here, I see, good and nice behavior is big problem, it is big minus, because it is counted as autism, if I am not taking other people’s positions and talk over them. It is not only related with my low-income situation here, it is related with that imaginary picture, all people from Finland are rich. Now, when my English skills are better and my 5 years karaoke and presentation practices have done change, I do not still get any chance to even handling my personal issues properly, because other people still continue that hoopla, “she is hooker from Russia”. I already am charging couple of local and nationwide TV and radio stations about spreading such of lies and nonsense. My close “digital friendship” with CNN’s anchor put least one person “under my influence”, because knowledge of my details has different meaning for all and I can see, if finally spreads and grows. Where it ending, who knows, but I would say, any itch is better than hate. Getting everything under proper guidelines of “old minded”, “secretly and at dark” and religious people is totally other story. For me it looks like, other peoples sex life, is most used reason to go to church here in America, what Finns cannot imagine – for me, it is still sounds very close be shaming about God’s work, about “such of movement or being naked in sauna to get clean”. It is all about cultural differences and you can read more about these from my book, “How to survive with Finns, Questions and Answers”. It has not answers to main question, but it certainly gives idea, what is “normal” in Finland and what they might fight against.
For worldwide economical problems, I still have same solution, get my situation better in moneywise and put it in the paper, because other people use all procedures what I doing. If compensation from lifetime stress and 30 years needless yelling, what caused many job losses, loss of marriage, loss of friends and property and many“near dead” situations is that low, I could not get proper housing and living, it is not good example about American solution. Being now US citizen, international disagreements needs to be handled way, what tells seriousness of problem, when we dealing disagreements with two or more countries and over all, this solution needs to be comparable, what usually happens in judges world, when comparing other cases as medical malpractice, sexual harassment, damaging good reputation, disturbing privacy and stealing other persons property, and what it usually brings to victims pocket. If prosecution only has my thoughts about “what awful war news and crime stories in TV” brings to my mind, it is far away about reality, and about fact, my lung size is smaller and I do not even smoke, my hearth skips and is uneven movements in stress situations and several other real symptoms, what are not fixable with money. Damages needs to be compensated and more damages needs to prevented in personal level, inside United States and in international relations. That has been my diplomatic topic now for 5 years.
March 29, 2009
Some comments after Meet the Press and about my home hunting. Energy is one very important topic today, regardless we talking about US ability to produce home made energy choices instead imports or my ability to keep going whole day with this disability. Some people just do not understand, what type of disability long term stress is and how it can be treated. We already know, my stress is basing on this huge publicity, what that thought reading has created and because there is very few people, who wants “to comfort me” by personal discussions, I have to find other ways to get that energy out. Sitting at home by reading a book do not help, because it very easily stops for wonders, I need to get my own place, I need to write this and this letter and mail them today and then I take a trip and walk, what always help for concentrating for something else than this. So, those, who think my disability is made up, think twice. Being basically twenty something years bullied by these thought readers and feeders you cannot see it just by looking me. Perhaps situation, where all other people laughing and I don’t, you understand, it is, because it was again, how I thought about something. It do not mean, my energy cannot be used for some jobs, but how to find and get right one is not simple. So far, I lost my investment for my education about new occupation.
How I think about US energy fixes, I already told my opinion about how new houses are built. There is no need to be even freezing night, when there is warning sign about leave “your faucets dripping”, because water pipes can go broken if is too cold night. I have faced that problem in couple older houses, when one winter morning water does not come, even temperature is little under freezing and house can be 30 years old. In these southern states, freezing happens, but it happens usually only in few months, but can happen from September to March. I would create some insulation standards, when new homes have to pass some type of requirements, then that type of water and heating waste do not happen. It can be like Basic requirement, what are easily passed and not so costly and Castle type requirement, where money is not a factor, how much effort can be done to save water and energy costs. That type of naming also reduce that first and second class feel, when those very easily are connected how people look like. I think, it is very widely understood even poor people have to have a chance to get own home and standards cannot be that high, than low income people cannot buy anymore. About other group, in this world has always been rich and poor people and who belong where and what are the “acceptable ways to move from one group to other” maybe never ending disagreement. If you are not born rich, other chances are you becoming rich by your business efforts (usually never by just working) or you marry somebody who is. Because of my publicity and connections for several people, sometimes it is very hard and stressful “look rich and wealthy and hold couple pennies in the pocket”. This type of waiting game is very stressful also and that is very much related about my job losses and poorly handled lawsuits and complaints, what I have reported a pile in two countries and what some people always forgot, I was who filed them, so I will get the money, when battle is over. Others lawsuits after mine are just complaints, what I can dump anytime with my reality. Most important still is about these kind of battles, it is all about money, not about people’s lives as it has been in the war. Reality of those people, who born poor and ugly includes some skills to fit any type of world, but sure, it is one more stressful situation, when there is so many, who compare.
Other fix for energy standards can be emergency heating system, what of course, basing on wood burning fireplaces. Anyone, who has lived day or two without any heating system at house in wintertime knows how awful it is and how nice it is, if your home has wood burning fireplace to get least one spot of house warmed and maybe cook some food also if needed, if generator or other sources are out. These kind of systems are messy and old, but being grown up in country side, where power losses happened almost every year for some period in cold winter time, it never was catastrophe, when preparation for it was already done. Even in these southern states, whose I mostly know, need for extra heating for several very cold nights can be done by some type of fireplaces, what in other time can be just for emergencies. Totally other issue is to teach people using fire for good, not for burning whole house. If there is tax breaks for window replacements, why it cannot be extended for fireplace creates for old and new homes, to get that choice for low income people and for bad days, when nothing else works. Those, who worries about air quality, this is still for temporary need and for backup for main system.
Totally other topic is world of Treasury Secretary after these banking hooplas, what looks like are very much same what I experienced in my personal life. Who say, it is good to follow what I doing, should make notes, what mean to be in danger. Decisions in dangerous situations are sometimes done is split of seconds and cannot be the most best every time. Being several times in near dead situation, my solutions should not be example for “general audience”. It is already broadcasted by CNN, how stock market goes up and down, comparing what I doing. Usually good days are mostly, when I have interviews, meetings or other activities with other people or long car trips and still those invitations are like last thing to do. My home hunting proof it again, these gas people (or Oxygen) still try to hunt me down, basing on their “imaginary opinions about my violent behavior”, what really has been my brain activity, basing on movies, war news, traffic accidents what I have seen, what really are not part of my real life at all. Other topic, leaving a job with short notice is not a crime, when agreement states “either side can end it anytime and any reason”, what about EEOC of course, can ask details. For many Finns, my job changes has been so unbelievable, because Finns never have job choices like here was 10 years ago and application process is so much slower over there. Same thing with counting “my boyfriends”, where some people thinking there is a limit for it too, even I do not have any children yet. Just to compare, because I am “bullied by Hollywood”, how many marriages and boyfriends Elizabeth Taylor have had, or any these hottest stars? They life, as mine, is so stressfull, because of public always testing them, if they can find peace and happiness with other person, that should be acceptable, doesn’t matter how many others list already have. That other solution, “doctor’s overdose something” is never better than interacting with other person. That is why I am still without drugs and reaching those, who gives me positive attention. Ruining my trips for all type of tricks and attacks is so wrong, just because some people twenty something years ago did not have a clue, this is device, what can transfer people’s brain activity to other persons to hear. Do I want to carry it – I do not have a choice, but I have a choice what I want to do and with who in future. Because I have plans and future and it includes people too.
March 26, 2009
Some notes after speech and other current opinions. For me, it is still impossible to believe people just not care, even leaders do not care if my thoughts are spread all over and I tell, it causing huge financial, personal and safety problem for me and for other people and it is still continue. I did not get any advises, what to do, what to think or what to read, so I keep going with my style, but I am really, really, really tired, not just physically, but because my finances just sinking still and skills and information is not used as they should. Do I need to tell, how many karaoke restaurants I have sang and how many hotels slept and how many miles I traveled, to be more skilled and knowledgeable about this complicated international political problem, what some people still call “just my sickness” and my reports telling over and over, it is problem, what media companies created with this lie news and spreading of my brain activity. And again, it really is not only one channel, who doing it, all what I have seen repeat my thoughts here in United States, in Europe, including Finland and most likely all other places too. I have heard, Finns just thought, it is not any kind of problem and some even think, it only happens over there. I could not believe how it is possible all Diplomats, what I know, have seen me in my “world wide travels”, and they did not tell each other countries what kind of mess it always is for traffic and for news. Do not blame me, I have not give a permit to repeat them or even listen and if my relatives were given it, they really should be in discussion tables and answer, why hell, why?
US current politics concentrate for health, education and energy, what all are good areas to fix. Increased violence and international safety problem, because of this thought reading mess is really very important too, because it mostly basing on for very poor health service and abusive way to manage other person life. For me, it is really doctor’s mistake and poor judgment, because I was sent to hospital long time ago here in US and such of device was already in use and I was there for reasons, what problems that device caused and proper help was not given. Giving treatment for alcoholism for person, who drink only coffee is not any kind of proper treatment. You all can see now, how much different I am, because I know, what is reason for my miserable's – it is certainly not be any “sckitso” or similar, it is simply device, what other people to use to control me. Any estimates, how many woman and man lost their lives and property, because of this device? I think, I am first one, “who survive alive” to tell exactly what it doing. This abuse should be human rights and safety warnings lists for number one. If some people still thinking it is some type of help, if others know all the time, where you are going to go and how much time it takes to get to your toilet issues done and do you clean your butt left or right side or so, etc., think twice. That whole thing is reason for stress and miserable behavior, what other people cannot understand, because it is invisible. Other problem is that endless “others opinions”, they said, they said and pla plaa… If these people even one time could bring these same people to same table with me, then we could see, how sick it is, when all issues are taken care basing on, only, what other people thinking and saying. It sounds very similar, when I looking for a job and my references deny, she do not need it, because she has “money to walk and stay out every day”. Fresh air is still free and walking too. I have never heard anyone coming to my home to offer any real job. It is very much related also why some people living where they living, they want I move but doing everything for that I cannot. If you think moving means just hope to get in to other persons home, you are wrong. My preparations for moving is finally in point, it really happens, even there might be some “rats and spots”, what are not so inviting for my “pussycat reputation”, but it will be my home and all, who ruining my life with stories like these, should think their own lives. Would you like if I order you to have “child making operation” with a person, who do not show up while you are awake and such of operation is planned to be secret until results are labored out? This thought reading entertainment industry pressuring also for sex acts to get that special information, what happening during such of normal enjoyment and some people have done lot of trouble to try to get it happen, forgotten without proper situation and preparations it will be one more crime. I think, it is easy to understand after that much losses and pain, what I have, such of natural enjoyment should happen only if I wish and in only proper situations. If my “sex life shaking safety” of United States, I think it is time to review use of this listening device, not pressuring me for something, what creates “needs for couple loops” or other not so welcome stress reducing procedures, what I using, because I know, it always works. Main thing still is get these financial losses covered and keep it level, what gives me a chance for recovery, normal safe life, work type of activities, relationships with several people, not just with one buddy, who do not believe anything what I say. If my reactions creating problems, because I am abused, then fixing my situation is first thing to do and it do not mean hushing away all people, who still communicate with me. I need more people around and situations, where calm discussions can express how this all has meaning for other people’s life also from point of mine. If this happened to me, it can happen to other person too.
One awful opinion is about my issue “fighting”. How it is possible, some people still requiring every issue is handled way, what do not go without extra effort and contacts to other places to get that same, what others getting without any questions. Let say, for example, if moving to new home costs $1500 and you have $800 to use, do you think you can just fight until you live there? In that particular example you need to pass office to get the key, all utility companies to get services and also keep out all people, who do not accept you do not pay enough rent after you some way got the key. That is not fight, what I like to do. My fight is get enough money, what I try to get for being crime victim and that way I have been since I find out about this abuse business and after I was offered to “write the bill and leave it to table”.
My former government office was place, who has certain police rights and I have kept reporting time to time to real ones too, because my position became “being whistleblower” and against crimes. This all means, investigation is done basing on reality and correct information and also without years pain with thought reading. Being physically still so weak after these health related attacks, working in reporting area works even with this device, when I spread the word to highest leaders every time, if normal system do not work. I still need paid job too.
Better news boys, please!
March 22, 2009
This time, I add a letter, what I sent to my fellow Finnish Government office people, where I started work almost 20 years ago, what is almost like "whole lot of life". What has happened in these 20 years, is lot to tell and it certainly means, I have learn a lot, loss a lot, gain some and seen a lot. I also has huge pile of plans for future and it so far not include go to back to this government office or to Finland but because they somewhat has been involved long time ago and over all, my diplomacy and being now US citizen, includes hopes for talking relationships with my old country buddies, what still stacking very badly, because of this war. Why private person like me ending up of middle of major war issues, is all about, these problems are always dumped under "she is mentally ill". That is not true, but I certainly have painful stress about my private life has been spread all over the world. Now, when I am more experienced and practiced to talk to people and make presentation - even applied for nationwide TV talk show (what anchor accepted in his show, but not in papers, so far - because many of his stories are lie and rest can be jokes). I am not give up my active life just because some people decide call my political position as "mental sickness", what doctors says "cannot do anything". I have done lot of work to inform United States and actually whole world, including Finland about my unusual thought reading and broadcasting experiences and if it still dumped under "my sickness", I starting also point people, who are sick, when they cannot see reality. It is very sad, I need to start that list from closest ones, including relatives, what really are not capable to discuss same manner about US politics as me, being years and years yelled by already several US Presidents without having part of real reasons, discussions or compensations, what that type of damage doing for regular person, who really has not have sexual contacts any of these politicians. My several months informational letters during last Presidential election to most famous candidates created good base for current President, what I really hope, he uses as details, experience and opinions. So far, he still want my long term temporary living situation stays like this, what actually created most of problems because proper financial help did not arrive and what is in paper so far, leaves me permanently with government help, if I cannot run own profitable business, because there is no much help to go to worklife with this "nerve damage, what these two countries has done for me behind my back without proper health fixes". My last effort to get "word out" in CNN news hour, most likely goes under "their jokes", even Anchor itself verbally want me talking there, what really could be plus for "Russian played CNN". Here is letter for Finns in Finnish. I leave translation for other Finns and I control after, how much they got wrong.
ARKIPÄIVÄ SUOMESSA TAI AMERIKASSA, YKSITYISKOHTIA EROAVAISUUKSISTA
“Tarja V Makinen, How to survive with Finns, Questions and Answers”
Olen Suomessa syntynyt ja ensimmäiset 30 vuotta Suomessa asunut ja työskennellyt, nykyisin Yhdysvalloissa asuva Yhdysvaltain kansalainen. 15 Amerikan asuin- ja työvuoden jälkeen voin kertoa minkälaisia eroavaisuuksia arkipäivissä on. Aikaisemmin toimistotehtävissä työsuojelupiirissä työskennelleenä elintasoni laski amerikkaan muuton jälkeen heikon kielitaidon takia, mutta koska työtilanne oli niin mahtava, töitä silti löytyi ja aloin myös opiskella tietokonealan certifikaatteja, elintasoni parani, kunnes jouduin rikoksen kohteeksi. Tämä rikos, jonka kohteena olen, kirjaimellisesti “vie ajatuksetkin päästä”, taloudellisista menetyksistä puhumattakaan. Tämä on yksi syy, miksi kirjoitin tämän kirjan ja toinen syy on se asenne, mikä monilla suomalaisilla on amerikkaa kohtaan. Kulttuurierot ovat suuret, myös muutamat lait ovat niin erilaiset että ajattelu- ja elämistapa pitää muuttua ennenkuin voi sulautua uuteen yhteiskuntaan.
Olen varmasti ensimmäinen suomalainen, joka pystyy kertomaan todellisen amerikkalaisen työelämän arkipäivästä ja kuinka elämä sujuu pienellä palkalla elävillä amerikkalaisilla. Myöhemmät kokemukseni voivat myös kertoa ongelmista, mitä monet ns. “julkkikset ja tiedotusvälineiden uutisidolit” kokevat yksityiselämässään, kun todellisuus uutisten ja todellisen elämän välillä kasvaa niin suureksi että uutistoimistot itse eivät ollenkaan ota vastaan kyseistä henkilöä, koska liiottelu ja tarinointi kyseisestä henkilöstä on niin paksua etteivät he enää tunnista samaksi henkilöksi. Itse olen tällaisen uutisoinnin kohteena ja voitte verrata uutiskanavien tarinoita ja minun nettisivullani, www.traveldreamer1.com, huonolla englannilla kirjoitettuja kommentteja. Muutamat satojen miljoonien oikeuskorvausvaatimukset ovat toinen todiste siitä, miten nämä eroavaisuudet ovat vaikuttaneet yksityis- ja työelämääni – voin kertoa että menetykset ovat suuria. Koko oikeuslaitoksella on vaikeuksia käsitellä asiaa, koska tuomareiden ja lakimiehien pitää ensin tutkia koko juttu edes uskoakseen että jotkut “kirjaimellisesti seuraa ja uskoo pelkkiin ajatuksiin”. Kunkin henkilön ajattelu perustuu aikaisempiin kokemuksiin, reaktioihin mitä näkee, kuulee ja kokee ja ne todella sisältävät niin myös “hauskat hetket sänkykamarissa” kuin kauhu- tai seksielokuvat tai niin jokapäiväiset television sota- tai murhauutiset, jotka todellakaan eivät ole osa katsojan elämää.
Koska olen tämän kansainvälisen poliittisen kiistan riitakapula, haluan tämän kirjan avulla levittää elämänkokemuksiani ja joskus niin pieniäkin eroavaisuuksia arkipäivässä, jotka joillekin ihmiselle ovat kuin laki, jota ei voi muuttaa. Yksi hyvä esimerkki on siitä, että täällä “syvässä etelässä” lunta ei tule kuin kerran vuodessa ja kun sitä tulee edes ripaus, se merkitsee sitä ettei koululaiset mene kouluun, koska ne ovat suljettu ja työpaikoille menee vain ne jotka ovat esimiesasemassa tai muuten asemassa, että mitä tahansa tapahtuu, he ovat paikalla. Oma ryhmänsä on sitten suomalaiset – ja muut pohjoisen asukkaat, jotka eivät voi antaa periksi todellisuudelle että vaikka jokaisen pohjalaisen talviajotaito on pakosta tullut niin hyväksi ettei pikkuripaus lunta hetkauta mihinkään, toisilla etelän asukkailla ei ole sitä samaa taitoa eikä kukaan vaihda talvirenkaita maassa, jossa lunta tulee vain kerran vuodessa. Itse ihmettelin ensin moisen “snowdayn” pitämistä ja muutaman vuoden päästä itsekin jäin kotiin ihailemaan harvinaista näkyä, enkä vaarantanut uutta autoani ja omaa henkeäni muutaman työtunnin menetyksen takia. Tämä on yksi esimerkki arkipäivän eroista, josta olen kuullut negatiivista palautetta, koska asiaan liittyy niin monta syytä “miksi tämä suomalainen ei aja tuntureille kesärenkailla”?. Kirjani esittää monia saman tyyppisiä tilanteita arkipäivän eroista.
Mitä annettavaa tällaisella kirjalla on työsuojelupiirin henkisen hyvinvoinnin tarkastajille?. Vaikka Suomessa ei ulkomaalaisia työntekijöitä ole kovin paljon eikä toisaalta kovin moni suomalainen työskentele ulkomailla, ne vähät jotka ovat tällaisessa asemassa ovat joutuneet tai voivat joutua vääränlaisen opastuksen ja neuvonnan kohteeksi, koska lait ja arkielämä toisessa maassa ovat erilaiset. Sopeutuminen aina vie aikansa, mutta jos se johtaa jatkuviin työpaikan menetyksiin ja pysyvään työttömyyteen sekä uudella maalla että maasta, mistä työntekijä lähtee on jotain opittavaa. Poliittisia ajatuseroja ja kansainvälisiä riitoja ei pidä sotkea yksityisen ihmisen arkielämään. Apu on aina tervetullutta, jos se sisältää rehellistä keskustelua eikä seläntakana juonittelua jonkun tietyn lopputuloksen saamiseksi. Koska asemani nykyään on niin erikoinen – antaessani “ohjeita” sekä Valkoiselle Talolle että EU:n johdolle saamatta penniäkään siitä – haluan korostaa sitä tosiasiaa että aina kun käsitellään ulkomaisen henkilön tai ulkomailla asuvan henkilön asioita aina pitäisi muistaa että osallisina on aina vähintään kaksi maata ja vakavissa riitatilanteissa kummankin maan johto on vastuussa siitä jos lakia on rikottu ja jos viranomaiset ovat toimineet väärin. Jos riitaan ei tule tyydyttävää ratkaisua henkilötasolla ja asia on jo reposteltavana korkeimpien poliittisten henkilöiden kesken, se luo niin erikoisen tilanteen, jos tavallisen kansalaisen pitää oikoa henkilökohtaisten syiden takia poliittisia johtajia. Maalaisuudestani, vähäisistä yliopisto-opiskeluistani ja ujoudestani huolimatta olen asemassa että annan ohjeita heille, koska asia liittyy omaan yksityiselämääni ja tulevaisuuteeni. Jos tämä estää neuvojen vastaanoton ja tilanteen annetaan vielä kehittyä valheiden ja rikoksien pohjalta, useat kirjoitukseni ja kannanottoni tulevat todistamaan jonain päivänä että suomalaisuuteni ja se, etten ole rikoksien kautta yrittänyt saavuttaa asemaani, antaa minulle pohjan antaa ohjeita ja neuvoja, missä menee vikaan ja minkä takia. Tavoitteenani on hyvä sopu yksityiselämässä sekä myös kansainvälisesti ja teen työtä sen hyväksi, koska “näkymätön sänkykamarihuvi on huvia toisille, mutta ei minulle.” Mikä osa siitä on todellisuutta ja mikä silkkaa kuvittelua lienee oma asiani kunnes oikeus haluaa kuulla todisteeni. Se tosiasia, että ns. “Pussycat” tittelini ei ole johtanut edes vierailuun Valkoisen talon sisäpuolelle, kertonee jotain minun todellisuudestani. Valokuvani Washingtonista ja New Yorkista kertovat lisää.
Henkisen työsuojelun tarkastajat varmasti tietävät että stressi on suuri syy työongelmiin. Jos stressi perustuu rikoksen kohteena olemiseen ja siihen ettei asiaa mikään taho halua tai osaa tutkia eikä selvittää tosiasioiden perusteella, lopputuloksena voi olla pysyvä työkyvyttömyys, koska rikoksentekijät alkavat seurata uhriaan joka paikkaan. Joskus ainoa syy miksi tällaista seuraamista tapahtuu on se että jotkut eivät voi hyväksyä sitä että “aivot eivät suostu olemaan ajattelematta ja tietääkseni missään maassa ei vielä ole kieltoa, etteivät kansalaiset saa ajatella mitä haluavat”.
March 20, 2009
There is several type of “increasing interest”, what people can do and if we do not talk this time about “taking care about friends ability to grow their ego’s or growing trust for endless support”, even in these touch times, there is need for saving accounts, because it creates good credit points in loan world. I am still somewhat in economy world – I have to, because I need to stretch a penny.
Banking world has got whole lot new problems and it is bad guys who always get the money, when somebody loosing it. I was happy Ing Direct customer years earlier and now their service is like “Don’t bring your money for us”. This Internet based company had few years ago 4% interest, what is good reason to keep couple extra dollars there, instead 0% checking account, when transfer to checking account in old days took day or so. Now everything is changed. I got advertisement about their service, they even offer $20 free dollars, if you are new customer. I had account earlier and last time, when I checked many years ago, they told, you need to add money to keep account ongoing. They never have had fees, but some reason, in my case, they did not want to see, I just keep money there, while I was under financial trouble after loosing my job because, I became crime victim. I sent their account offer to open new account and so, of course their remembers suddenly, I have had account and it actually had twenty dollars it, what their took same time away, blaming because you have not used your saving account for two years, we just closing it. That is unacceptable way to even try to use for explanation, where my money went.
Can you imagine, if all banks just using same excuse to take money from all retirement savings accounts, when owners do not add or take money from it, because they do not have an extra money that time and do not want to touch for amount, what is there. It is absolutely disaster, if banks using system like this, what they explains is Georgia’s rule. Basing on that rule, forget all banks, you retirement money or money for emergencies, like this was, is gone on time, when you need it. I did complain about it to local police and FDIC, what results are same than “that is thrifts store money”, just keep it in checking account. Idea about having savings account is because it creates habit to put some money away for bad days, what you do not touch and other reason, because it gives points for creditors and loan decision makers. It is old story, when little child keeps pennies in the bank for future days and if these kind of account growing, let say, 18 years without not much traffic before student loans and car loans, shame on you ING DIRECT, you have nerve to close somebody’s savings account, just because there is no much money.
I got few months ago this account fixed, they allow me to add more money to same account, what was empty after they lost my old savings and now today I did fight with them again, because they decide to close my account again, even there was activity, there was current address and phone number and most of all - there were money – 6 dollars to waiting, I can get that steady money there again. All was set up already for easy transfers from checking account to savings account and vice versa. For me, this is something like, looks like my long time waited and yelled compensation money was there already and they decide to close it and keep the money again. How earlier so responsible bank start doing something like this now? If nicknames and name change, as I have had after I became US citizen is reason for this, they have a record about court decisions and original names and my already wellknown public position should tell, who I am and “who I was”, what is still surprise for them. They liked more that ‘always working girl, who had money to pay bills”, but who did not say a word, more than this new one “who is victim and fighting to get compensation for it”. There is really not any empathy or sympathy for me, I lost my long term employment, ability to get new similar ones and bad guys just keep doing crimes, while I can tell what they doing, but nobody reacts to stop it.
If I could make rules, banks cannot close savings accounts in 20 years, even if they have no traffic, unless there is death without beneficiaries, what in my case is not the case, because I still writing that story and what coming to beneficiaries, they keep growing…
SHAME ON YOU ING DIRECT
March 17, 2009
My stop at CNN Center today was proof how slow and how wrong it is, when my information has been available in this Website more than 2 years now and couple of their anchors has get exclusive information - without interviewing me to get details faster. With this speed and this type of communication, when I hear important details maybe year or two later, all sorting out takes more than one person lifetime, because new problems grow up all the time. So, who are in the road to rescue, map it that way some point, I do not have to popping up outside middle of the night, where some gun people has been too active already. Written feedback is very low still comparing how many hundreds letters, faxes, emails and phonecalls I have done.
March 15, 2009
For G20 Summit people from United States and from Europe: My peaceful work to investigate my work related problems gave results, I am middle of the worldwide political fight and it is basing on this thought reading and feeding. It caused health risk and damaged my financial life and privacy and caused life threatening situations, what still continue, because there is no solution to stop this listening, broadcasting and feeding. See my latest video at www.youtube.com with ID numberonevirpi. Realize, there might be overrecording by unknown people, who chancing my message.
March 11, 2009
I sent couple faxes and emails about meeting, what I wanted to set up to speed up that ongoing handling about my situation, what has damaged my chances for normal life especially since 2003. My reality and other peoples reality is still so huge - I do not get paid from media companies - and same time businesses do not want hire me, because they think I already working for them. It has been my private investigation, what I started, when my chances for normal jobs was next to nothing, same thing to chances for normal studying. Damages to my health and finances are that big, needed recovery time means whole lot of chances and monetary compensations, what my already filed lawsuits are as a start with government based help. Ignorance of my investigation results and exprerience of this all is a shame, because I can tell how it will go, when this issue is not fixed.
March 6, 2009
When I compare time, when I still was working at Prime, 2003 and now, they have similarities as move, move, move! In that time, it was so awful, when there was not real reason to move from rented home, what I occupied nicely for several years paying rent and all needed utilities always on time. All those tricks, what some people did to get me out from there still effects my current situation, what actually mean, I got financial troubles to move to own apartment or buy a home, because long term dating never ended for marriage. Doesn't matter how many jobs I have started after that and how many times I applied for loan, new home has been unreachable. Being in this imaginary position, between celebrities and poorest people, it is also certainly has been unacceptable by me and many others, just leave and start living at the street. These many years stories about huge business, what I am involved, it is for sure actually crime, what some other people run by using my brain. That is why I too got losses. It is unbelievable, after that many years and that many officials and politicians still only advice, what I get, is move. It might be possible soon, but original reason, why I had to leave my former home is main problem for me, because there is no discussion about it and because of it, most likely it will happen in next place too. If it is organized crime, where even some officials are with, it is hard to understand, what is purpose of laws and courts, when I have already taken several issues related of this to them to solve, they knew who are involved and still everything continue. If it is now part of war, we all know, real fights are not officially in this country, US, but in real life, looks like fighters are already here and do their tricks here and there.
This same type of hush-hush happened in my original home country, Finland, too, so I do not see any difference to hop there this time, because I am already US citizen. If some "kieros" Finns has idea, they can just punish me with imaginary stories and collect money, what belongs to me, I continue my rallies to courthouses and police stations and they can pick people, who look familiar for other troubles too. That is my choice, because they do not still talk at all as they should! Same thing with related people here in US, they know, but they do not lift a finger to stop, what happening. Counting friends and how often you see them, feels same than, if some people start counting how long I sit in the toilet - there is some issues, what government should not be regulate! And other way, if some courts thinks, they can run it 24 hours, it should include "peaceful toilet time" without comments! This all is pile for healthcare department, what is proper and what is preventable!
February 28, 2009
Couple lines again, because real discussions are just same impossible to find than "needle in haystack" or even haystacks.... My speech response got good echo, of course, expect those hackers again topped with jokes and lies = my words are already overwritten in my own video. That is why writing is better, combination of video and writing is the best. It is very big problem, if anyone, who speaks in digital media and words are changed without audience even know it. That is why personal meeting is a must! For example, see the meaning of difference. For imaginary example, if I say in video, "I have dollar in my pocket, when I go shopping for new house" and hackers changing it for - "I have million in my pocket".. Most of people believe, what they hear, without questioning, is it real or not and keep wondering, why you keep crying, if you keep walking million in my pocket. I keep crying, because it is not true - currently.
Other extremely huge problem is those endless stunts, what popping up here and there as some type of replacement of my old friends and real relatives, what either ones do not popping up in real life here from Finland. It is some people's industry, because amount of people is hundreds and most likely they using money and situations, what actually legally belongs to me. It coming up every now and then, when people notice, why "she do not know her sister or old buddy". I don't, because person is just look alike, not original. Some of them are so closely same looking, than one look is not enough to sort out.
For me, this type of industry creates two types of problems. It absolutely increases crimes and fights, because if they uses my money and picking my mail, without my permit, it is real crime and in case, when they get caught, they of course can be dangerously attacking, because they know, they doing wrong. Other problem, where that type of industry leads is, original ones are most likely pushed down mentally or even physically, because my relatives do not show up here at all now. If that type of behavior is punishment from them, for me, because I moved to other country, level of understanding my skills and experiences should be recounted quickly, to prevent this attacking do not spread. Idea about staying totally out of my American life is understandable, if my public position and money losses are too much to handle, but in any case, when most of problems basing on imaginary crimes and "imaginary hooker stories", what has not been true, fixing damages and rethinking attitudes could help this ongoing international discussion about my private life. When misleading stories has created idea about "I calling to President to find a job or labor office" and in real life I contact to there, because I did see very complicated and increasing international problem, where I am middle and even President himself is used by this system, getting wrong idea about me, whole situation and my efforts to advice, my talking is not done for purpose to get couple dollars to my pocket, it is done for stop this huge crime and misleading broadcasting and all, what basing on "just my thoughts and brain activity". Because my thoughts still are "hottest topic" in US, there is no way to say any blame about my stupidity or mental illness. Reality is, I never wanted to be in this type of position and I using my brainactivity to show, they are just thoughts and reactions and leaders should end this type of industry other way than reaching my life, because I do not run this copying.
My ticket to Washington is still in "Most Wanted" list, what similar trip to New York could replace also, if it includes proper discussion and place to stay. My interest for College and similar common education is not lost, but experiencing this stress years and years, it is hard to imagine to sit in usual classroom, where most interest will be "what she thinking", if this type of mess do not end before, I starting studies. Using this system to teach others is workable idea, but my main problem is my ongoing stress without any real break and recovery time, because interviews are so unreal. If some people still asking, what I mean with unreal, answer is that same what people saying to me " I do not know anything, I have never heard about you and I have never heard anybody talks about you in TV". Get reality, "real celebrities" should announce it - it is my private life details, what they spreading in every movie, every show and song added with imaginary connections! I already accept that, it is their job and movie and news monstercompanies will pay for me about it - if not, it is government responsibility. If not, most likely, otherwise some envy or worrying people doing tricks here and there, what I have do not really have anything to do with it. I want handle this with money, not with loss of lives!
And those Finnish folks, is there some real crime in your books or are you all just too shy to talk to "that American girl"? Tulin "puhtaan jauhopussin kanssa eikä asenne ole siitä muuttunut!"
February 5, 2009
Couple week “honeymoon time” is most cases enough to get that common speed and style, how life will be under new rules. So far, I am not still married with anyone after my divorce and this honeymooning, what I talking about now, is mostly given to new presidency to get started without my neverending written comments, what always get attention. How disappointed I was, when previous administration did not get any meetings or complete solution to my very complicated international situation, is not my hands to handle any more. Those, who still thinking, this is just a family issue, I can tell, it is not, because my original family has lost 50% of members and rest of them do not communicate much. If that is their way to think, “piglets come home yard when freezing time comes”, sorry, it do not work that way. There is a new life and new chance to get things done better and I really expect, it will be better also. Better means in my case, when my thoughts distribution prevents me to get a job or run a business or even get those relatives and friends to visit, whoever runs that type of distribution should be taken down and it certainly not be me. I really have not any chance to control do they go out or not, nor to get money, what is produced by spreading my genius ideas and emergency solutions day and night.
That leads for other fact – that endless yelling about my “laziness or craziness”. I still like to attend those business presentation - even I should be the person, who talks there, but because they are not my companies, I cannot say a word during their sometimes very upsetting presentations. And why they are so upsetting, because they repeat that same type of negative attitude and wrongful information, what some broadcasting companies has done for years about me. Most stupid comment always is “you are so lazy” you cannot get done anything. Same time, I am just accepted for disability, because of that damage, what this thought reading and public yelling has done for years, because most of people do not understand, what mean 24/7/365. Because, there is no on/off button in my head, it is only my exceptional calmness and great values, what keeps me doing what I doing and of course, there is few people, whose get points – well, or kisses, about positive personal attention, what is counted highest in my pointing list. Those, who still want “me down” by thinking, that is needed to get up, they really should know, there is only one, who came up from being totally down and he was Jesus. It do not serve any purpose to feed that idea, what some Raymond mentioned already 1996, “we put her down and then pumping up”. I still asking, what was the reason for this type of stupidity?
My best guess is still, perhaps that email to old friend, who had woman in every town and unknown count of girlfriends and children and who some point attacked me badly, when I did not accept his drinky, smoky and sexy behaviors, regardless a fact, he needed help and I could use some help too, but reality is, woman cannot even talk with other man, when man can sleep with other woman, as my husband did during our dating time and still counted, I was better and more suitable to marry and stay with, because I did not left him for it. Listening years about endless stories about such of friendship and trying to create valuable, clean relationship I can see, honesty and long term friendship has no value, if it do not include that usual enviness, cries and depression about feeling to be left out and not noticed. So, my idea about getting relationship working is do things, what makes other person happy. If it is to get that coworker for every possible trip with and finally also for sleeping buddy, I think that wild loyalty is more than friendship, it is training for happiness. If you are happier without me, what I can do. If you miss me, you will find my company. If it feels nice to peek how I sleep and do my other private things and then give that all attention to other person and let me “sleeping in the park”, while I use all my physical and financial efforts and travel thousand miles to meet, it sounds, it is like full time job to love a person, who cannot receive it. If it can make somebody happy, it is worthy to do it, but getting same time so huge damages, I start sending bills if all what I get is no home, no personal attention and in this case, no real relationship. It should not usually be that complicated, but in my case whole nation shaking, if I do not have a “workable boyfriend” and whoever set that type of rules, should understand, what type of stress it created to me and all my possible companies. And because it is huge damage, I still not have marriage and family because of this public broadcasting of my details, it is really issue to whole nation and its leaders, what a hell happened, how it get this way from start.
I know, there is people, who think I called the President for reason to find where is unemployment office. If you are in that level, do not read more, because you never believe me, I was top 5% in every school and course and it is not much bad still, even this stress get me doing things, what sounds totally crazy for people, who has no clue, what it mean and how it feel, when other, unknown people can tell, how much money you have in your purse and what store you are lumping next to get that cup of coffee. So, when I contacted many years ago to President Clinton about my work related troubles and he advised to go local unemployment office, it was for me answer for my international related work troubles, I could continue working, if somebody hiring and keep finding out, why they always yelling about my life and lying about what I have done. I am sure, they already had that knowledge, somebody reading my thoughts and they let me continue without telling, what problems will be later coming for me and to whole nation. When serious emergency hit to my work 2003, there was again involvement of highest power in the country, but not clear reasons and instructions what to do. Hushing me from place to place, same time when I was sent to doctor to doctor and hospital to hospital and there was no interest to tell, all my troubles basing on that thought reading, what included so much misleading information, what example some churches counted like “biggest sin”, what they have ever seen and handled me like being mass murderer and sex holistic. Now later, I can tell all that type of opinions coming from my former breeding occupation and most likely many movies and no-sex dancing trips, what some people counting as sex, touching dancing partner all the time during of couple minutes dance. What is acceptable to one person, can be awful sin to other. For me, awful sin is spread details as “she did pee 10 hours ago last time and doing number two once a week, we need to give medication and hospitalize her” – for what? Mostly, that problem occurs, because somebody counting my trips to peehole and especially, when I was hospitalized, there was no exercise chances, what always fixes such of problem normally. Other sin is endless comments about my sex habits, what make some people counting “she is a man, because she mounting…” How you actually know about my position - without secrectly peeking – what means now, I am pressured for activities, what has not happen for years, because some people ruin that private moment so badly, even I did have a chance to get even first pregnancy. Trying to fix that damage with this sweet beauty created situation, what is shame for everyone – my wishes for enjoyable moments are tossed under foodstamps and licenses. This type of arrangement works, if it is real and I made it real, because I proposed. And because I did, he run away of course, it is much easier to deal with people who could “live normal private sex life”, what never is normal, when we talking about this level publicity. In my case simplest interview was tossed for pressure to sex act. All what is left for my normalcy is endless courtcases and complaints, what nobody want to handling basing on reality. It is sad to see, this type of path again leads for others terror, when all details going out, regardless do I tell about it or not.
That is why my solution is complete solution, not just pushing me here and there and thinking, it is not worth to answer, if I again contacting to highest leaders. Complete solution includes financial, housing and communication solutions with safety and legal issues. Skipping all crime handling cannot be part of solution, when my losses are so big with many years troubles behind and front. Preventing this type of mess do not happen again do not be that, dumping me place where I cannot come back. It is very dangerous think that way, when I always thinking, because many Finns are shy and they do not teach children for public speaking and presentations, they never get over their shyness. Teach them to talk in any place is preventing and that, thought reading will end now, because that device, what makes it possible is too dangerous for criminals to use. Thinking, it is love, when other person can control where person goes, it is similar, why all people just are put to individual jails to be safe and secure from others. For same reason, thought reading should not be happen, because it slaving the person - in this free country. It should not be happen at all. All this is worldwide spread, that is why it is issue for leaders, not just for private family.
onal relationship problems, family problems, it increases crimes at work and in same area and finally with immigrants, it creates international fights, what sooner or later can create real wars. Now we all can see, when my thoughts are broadcasted to Middle East or where ever they get them, everytime, when I raise my voice to get my rights, they have big hits both sides. This should be complete example about we, the people, has seen all the time, me, legal resident and legal worker has been blamed about crimes, what I am not fault and public did not report it, nor law enforcement did not care to stop those, who did crimes. Dumping this all to highest leaders, including The President, is more than right, it is savior of this country to stop this kind of process. They need to react right away, when small and innocent people get all blaming and criminals continue doing crimes. That all includes, law enforcement itself cannot make crimes for purpose of make evidence or purpose of making up numbers. If we cannot trust them, why we keep paying for them. If they make mistake and start hunting innocent as big criminal, it is understandable, because people make mistakes, but mistakes needs to recovered and damage needs to be fixed. I feel to be hunted for something, what never happened or what never will happen as this awful financial damage could lead - they expecting getting proofs of crimes this way. Is 10 years enough to proof, this is honest person or is it acceptable to ruin persons whole life punishing 15, 20 or 30 years without real reason, basing about “we cannot find any real crime, until we find, we couldn’t stop blaming”.
In my case shyness, inability to deal with shies, behavioral differences, language barrier and most of all because of several different countries became involved and no one did not have complete picture, how this all started and why it continued like this, it all led for what it is now. My website and many, many, many contacts to highest leaders for several countries gave that important piece to put this all together. This all basing on my thoughts and copied brainactivity and it has happened for long time and some point they were given to the broadcasters. My travels here in United States coast to coast and in Europe proofs, there was knowledge, this spread is everywhere, because every single hotel and little tiny motel, where I stayed, knew about my unusual position and law enforcement was most of times contacted, but there was no interest to create any kind of solution nor discussions with me, why they let that happen. Why they let my life to be damaged with this type of lying and why they let it continue this way and let other people’s lives to be miserable as my visits always did. Some people get personal behavior problems and others start using my situation making crimes and both of these are not good things. Why I over all did these visits and travels is totally basing on my long term trouble situation at jobs here in US, because “we do not talking about you and we never have heard anyone says anything about you”. That is, how it was from start and that is, what it still is. Total ignorance lead for disaster and if there is change coming, I hope first change is my questions will be answered. I have questions and I have them from last fifteen years, what I like to get answered and that will be good change. Other thing is, because this wait is that long, immediate financial recovery is must and first to get first step. First step could be to get that money to take a trip to Washington with connection for media or people, who could most benefit about my information. It can be a job or paid business hours, but leaving me out of this, certainly do not be any kind of change. As I requiring at court, part of my compensation requirements includes to fix this damage to my reputation, what this total ignorance about getting air and TV time has been, can be fixed starting reporting about my reality also. My long term broadcaster friend have again chance to do it, but I certainly not walking that far. Showing some type of impression as picking with a car and provide flight and housing ticket is a must. Battling with his employer mogul, most likely prevents no one shows up as usual.
We all know, there is no President, who has no money for travel to important meetings, nor President, who has no invitations to discussions. I am not in this type of position, but certainly I have information, what I can provide to serve, who is in this highest position and this time, it will be is Barrack Obama. Welcome and I hope, there is change also for this communication problem!
January 12, 2009
I continue this writing and also making audio recordings from these, because it is results of ignorance of my relatives, friends and Finnish officials, what is one reason I need to continue this guessing work – what has good results and what not. Same test is related with US problem handling, they got information same time and no proper results or solutions are not yet visible. I heard it long time ago “We do not even ask from You” – means, whoever made these decision about my issues did not discuss with me up front and not later either. Now we can see, where this type of planning leads, it leads for disaster. There has been long time rumors as “she died”. When I show up to certain places disappointment being “not dead” is visible and chances for jobs or housing or even relationships are next to impossible. Keeping up with this website is one proof, I am still alive and kicking. Sending direct mail to newspapers and politicians is other.
That, I did not show up in New Years celebration in New York with my long term anchor friend, was purely financial problem. If that “funny looking red head” thoughts away his ring, knowing it actually belongs to me and yelling same time, “Get a job”,then you have money to see your Prince, can be counted as entertainment or just jealously from her. What else I can say than is $300 000 million enough proof about damage, what I have, what lead me to situation, I cannot work as I did earlier and there is no many, who want to employ me. Looks like she also have this same opinion – “She is so lazy” , that is why she do not work. I already told, I wish this “redhead” invites me to verbal battle about my ability to discuss with my broken English. You all totally forgot, I have been target of people who poisoned me several times with gases and drugs and I have been near dead. I went to doctor in Finland about damage, what I got when somebody used laser or taser gun to my leg and it got visible damage, what mostly hurts, if I did not use my feet. Walking years miles everyday fixed mostly that problem, but not that fact, similar hits has happen to head and other places and I never know, when it is last one. If you understand this, what I writing, you should realize, I am victim of this war and endless international fight and there is no place to blame me about laziness or even mental illness. Other fact is, even get a job now requires you have to give least couple names, who actually let you working. I already heard long time ago, when I used my names of my relatives, they was mad about using them as “support to get a job” and same time they blaming, why do not work or why you looking other job. It is totally reason of this thought reading, real communication has ended for endless yelling and misleading information. It is not real two way, for me, because there is no knowledge, who is in other side and when I can get answer if I asking something. That is why I tried to make these meetings to meet face to face. I even offer to deal with local TV station to get videoconferencing. They did same problem, they talking to me about these issues without those faces, who has questions and most of all, they did not get me chance for my answers with my face with real timing and faces. All what happening is, they see and hear everything what I say and think and they misunderstand purposely, what just creates more problems to me, here and internationally.
It still has not get better, even I became citizen of United States and really helping leaders to put puzzles together and put related people to same table to discuss about past, recent and future, but it just not happen. My solution still is get my closest relatives, some former employers and coworkers together with Finnish leaders and US leaders and some former employers and coworkers and of course, couple media persons to same table to discuss to compare about each others reality. In this kind of meeting, I am who is in middle, because both sides lies about me and we know now, there is third parties who kicking all of us.. If current solution still is, they want to keep me outside real politics and meetings, there needs to be recovery plan for me. It needs to include payments for me and I already expressed, how I will using it. For first it will be used for housing and starting school in level, what is possible to finish, even in very hard conditions. Starting something high level and most biggest challenge and fail it, is not reasonable recovery after years pain and suffering. Other plan totally is ongoing engagement, what most likely do not go anywhere, because these money problems just continue with housing trouble. Buying new business is other plan and basing totally of financing and support to get these court charges going basing on reality – I am victim and I need coverage - not basing on how many friends I have now or then.
Those, who remember my example about “being in boiling kettle”, knows, I have been boiled for long time and I know, there is no any other, who could stand that long in this type of kettle, what I have. Jumping to other kettle did not bring any solution, so, it is time to cool down and get that real recovery. In modern world, as Finland and United States should be counted, there is no court handling, what “officially kills basing on just other parties stories or thinking pressure for suicide is only solution”. I am full of life with limitations, what can be called disability due long term victimize situation, but it’s not mean, I do not have same rights than others. I have same rights and I want issues be discussed with involved parties and those who did damage my life, will compensate it with money for me.
December 30, 2008
PEACEFUL AND FINANCIALLY EXITING NEW YEAR 2009!!
December 29, 2008
I see, it is awful, there is always reaction, when I mention some names or countries and it is absolutely bad for any private or instances react for my thoughts or voice or writings like this. It has been long time this way, all just want "I have to be quiet", not say a word, while these thought readers ruin all my real life things, including jobs and housing, what really happened 2003 and get back to even somewhat normalcy, has not still happened. That is why I using lot more writing and contacts to media and political people. I have not been in Finnish military, not in prison there or any other country. My sister's opinion count us as Russians are so far of true and reality, I could not accept it, being Finnish born from parents of Finnish citizens. Perhaps this type of "give up" was her solution, when Finnish leaders efforts to solve this problem has been similar by tries to send me physically "with an real elephant" to former Russian area. I hate to be in this type of position, I have to give strong opinions to highest leaders, here and there. Being so long time around this thought reading victim position, I can tell, what it brings with it and my solution was to stay with United States, because Finland did not have interest and power to keep these attacks from their own country.
For short list, not counting all gunmen, I can mention what type of painful attacks I have been experienced. I got some type of "miniexplosive" to my teeth with filling installation, what caused awful pain, when certain persons wanted to "demonstrate" similar pain, what other women get, when they have "baby delivery". Other similar needless pain have been being abused with drugs or poisons, what lead my nose leak blood, what some people has used as "proof of period", when found from toilet waste basket. These two examples may give an idea, I have been also abused way, what is very hard to proof, but certainly leaves bad taste of whoever doing it. For good purpose, I could deal with "some tricks", but absolutely only, when it is discussed with me upfront.
What coming to my exes and current friends, my first and so far only husband, was pure Finnish. All next candidates has been "pure Americans", so, I dealing with these two countries in that level and being publicly punished worldwide, I give my response worldwide. This all is very much help for United States and Finland and I see my responsibility sort out all what is related with my financial and health related problems here in United States and in Finland, whose either leaders did not see reason enough to discuss with me at all. That all is basically "President's and Prime minister's job" to do, not mine, but I do, because I have to because "my sinking" is most biggest reason for Finnish and local attacks here and there. It is shame for United States, I have had legal work permit and I got all that trouble and much more lower level lifestyle than what I had, what is not good example for this country, not to Finland either. I have been crime victim and one crime is this privacy leak with thought reading. I advising over and over, this is not my job to do and that is why I contacting leaders so many times. Those "thought readers" using me to messing around whole system and leaders do not get that meeting and talking done before physical attacks come. We already know, this same type of thought reading is used for many other people, including military. In my case we dealing with modern world, with EU and United States, there must be willines to discuss with me to get this awful leak stopped or used other way. I have also already solution for this, I leave joblife for art and (new) family and get paid for my investigation and advices, what basically my Invoice to The White House started to explain.
December 28, 2008
Happy after Christmas, we all can see how violence's raises again, doesn’t matter do I speak to my Finnish relatives or not. This year, I did choose only email and snailmail, but there is still reactions. If Hamas was that, who gave me hard time and attacked me, while I was in Finland and other places, I have only one opinion about them. Stay out of my life, from Finland, from Israel and any other country, what is not elected to you.
Totally other issue is, my invitations to Party for Celebrities did not bring up much. I waited 4 hours onsite, seeing all kind of people, but not those, who I invited. How people can think, I could handle anything, if my mail is stolen, phone rerouted somewhere else and meetings are like this, people do not show up or respond to reschedule. Reality is, I have been abused long time, I just combined something related with movie industry and celebrities. My diplomatic efforts to proof and discuss about it will not help my situation, if other people always steal my ideas and take all possible credits, what is offered. When main problem has been long time, Finns hated, I just sinking here, now they make sure I keep sinking, it is interest of this country also get that discussion with me going sooner rather than later. Just mentioned, “get that pedal fast and get to Washington” -. I think, some people need to get reality – as whose pedal? I do not have a car. If I show up again in Washington without written invitation, where you think I have my meetings, at the gate outside of White House ? - because, guards never seen me how I looks like or heard, I was that who sent Invoice. How about Capitol Hill, last time I did not get even to door, because I did not have an invitation. For my advertised meeting in Washington, only UN ambassador show up - with long release of gas……So, only possibility is You all coming to my meetings and reach me, otherwise that never end, unless I get compensation, what is really the most best solution.
Even now, when I am officially in United State side, being citizen, I still need to battle with my old country, Finland, because they asking some money from me from time, when I stayed there, while I was sorting out all that mess and informing and questioning them, I have issue to discuss and charge The White House about not to handle this international battle. Because their interest to discuss was next to nothing, this issue is still my main trouble. All is related that fact, why my thoughts and brain activity has been released to other people and basically to US ( and other countries) movie and music industry and newsworld? My informational letters and many, many, many contacts to The White House and Finnish government and politicians did not raise that discussion with me and if that not happen, I cannot keep up what they all decide to do. How many times it needs to be told, if they asking money from me by court after I asked money from them by court and they do not handle my case, but of course they want to handle their own case, this fight will continue. It is prevention of additional international attacks, if I get legal help to handle this, not alone, like it has happened earlier, because those who I ask, they just ignore everything by saying, you have not anything to discuss. Those, who handling it, using incorrect details and that happening mostly, because they do not discuss with me at all and that type of help only leads for more troubles and more lawsuits from me.
It is absolutely best, this mess is fastened by handling my original $10 million Invoice to The White House, who could deal with Finns way, what they see is proper and peaceful in this situation. If they wait my diplomacy works, it also take people’s lives all the time and that is why waiting is not good solution. If current administration still do not want to authorize that payment for me, because of all this “imaginary babymaking” stories, it is much more complicated, when Obama staff need to learn all details and battle again with same issue. That is why I have informed his group already and sad to see, he has still lot misleading believes around my background, what do not make this process any easier, regardless I already offered my help and diplomacy to him, with this and any needed problems to solve.
Totally other issue also is other offered solutions, as – why you just get that wedding and be quiet! For any wedding, there needs to be least two people and because I have been that road already, my next marriage needs to have more better chances to last longer. My many years relationship did not ended to wedding, not my proposal either, so far. Some reason, mostly because some people counting only what I think, not reality, my proposals are already “charged with my expenses” and my social benefits are reduced, because of that imaginary marriage. Other reality is, it has been more than 10 years, when I have last seen my former supervisor, who is called as Ken and some people have nerve still let him run my world with "his imaginary crimes and endless punishments". Is there any other office than The White House, where this kind of monetary punishment about marriage proposals can end, when reality is there has not been actual weddings lately, there has not been meetings face to face privately at all, and they charging these guys already and let them do all talking, without they never discuss with me about it. I think, some officials make big mistake how they count some decisions. It is all about – you cannot count just thoughts, only spoken and written words has real meaning!
December 25, 2008
Season Greetings - Happy Holidays - Merry Christmas - Hyvää Joulua!
December 21, 2008
Did you notice, you can buy my information - so far nobody has done it, because this all coming from TV' s and radio's out piece by piece free- illegally.
Christmas is very close and I am so disappointed, my situation is not what I expected. I have tell over and over, something, what brings normalcy to my life needs to be happen in this year, that was a goal. My efforts to get issues solved in courts, to get back to work life, get own business started or get that new familylife with new marriage and own home, any of these has not happened. Slowing down whole life with this communication system and fact, my information leaks to people, who using it against me and against people, who could improve my life and this whole mess around me. I want people realize, I want to run my own life, not by any “tits from somewhere” or politicians, who has knowledge of me basing on novel writers, storytellers from TV or movies or music makers. I just attended for book writers meeting and it was huge discovery to them, their writings is so affected what I doing and what they thinking I have done and what they thinking I should do next. They are novel writers, totally imaginary stories mixed with real life details way, what makes story interesting and most of all, because it’s relations for sexual and other hot topics, it is really made for sales purposes, not giving ideas how people should solve their real life problems or how politicians get information, or what is wrong with people who do not support them.
I also had a chance to introduce my new book, How to survive with Finns, Questions and Answers to them and it was easy to see, they counted it as useless children’s book. It really has nothing for children, it is all about my reality and experiences living with and between these two governments, being immigrant from Finland. Every politician should read it and realize, all immigrants are not from Mexico. Finns, who think “just sending some tits” to fix that damage, what sexual harassment doing at work places ruins same time that normalcy, what means if person is not marriage or in relationship, what leads some day for it, it most likely will look partner some point to get that own family. Those, who already got that damage and want to deal only with people, with their own sex, still actually wants still something else. It is not secret, persons who openly telling being gays, wants sex with opposite sex, especially with person, who they think has different view and more open opinions. It is real, I have different view and more open opinions basing on where I grow up and how I spent my free time in my young age and because of my sexual related occupation. Relationships like this, should let grow in their normal way, not in under thigh control and immediate punishment, if something unusual happen. Fix this situation later, is so hard, when main problem is somebody who has not authority can hold my life without commitment. If some people think, it is “only improvement” my earlier life, living alone with dog and working hard being same time abused with neighbors and unknowns secret listeners and most of all - watchers, without any kind of reason or agreement. Needless to say, that same screening happened already then.
Those, who still thinking I just run away from home - I can tell, with that much papers, what I did, it is not runaway, it was hard decision and that same hard decision happened on time, what my separation from my ex-husband happened, when his interest to solve my work related problems did not lead discussions, where it basing on, instead it lead for it, he started spending time with other people weekends including getting new lady companies. What else could be more right than be separated, if there was not enough base to continue together anymore. It was not run away and it will be same today, if I get other place to live and other solution to solve my economical problems, it will not be runaway, because there is not commitment. It has been friendship, what did not go as we thought, but that is what life is. Living in waiting game makes it harder, when all new creations are punished, with comments ”it is not proper under this situation”. Being now citizen and already sued several parties and informed so long time this and that other government to get some type of peaceful agreement. This privacy leak have to end and it have to be covered by money, because it caused so bad losses for me. I already told, my opinion is, Finland is not capable to keep my safety, because of this connection and they really have no idea, how much damage it has done to me and how much trouble I have seen to find out what it was and how I can solve my problems. All contacts, what I have done in last 10 years here in United States did gave a chance to US officials to figure out, what that type of ignorance and misleading information doing and that is why, they are even much responsible to fix problems, what are caused by unprofessional doctors, law enforcement and politicians, who not care to find paperfacts before big decisions. It is really easy to see now, when my citizenship process put that reality out, people wondering, “I can’t believe you are not Nadja”. I am not Anastasia or Tiffany either, nor elephant or “just nouone”. I am very much alive and capable to discuss, but I have big losses, huge stress and I do not like offices like EEOC first invite me to discuss about my details being sexually harassed at work and when they got my details, all what I got just shss, shss, shss.. – we are not interested about your case. My marriage proposal and being sexual harassed at work should lead discussions, not total ignorance of fact, my rights to work is taken away. My rights for privacy is taken away. My rights to get crimes against me handled properly in court is taken away – with no reasons or real decisions. I am victim of crimes and I want compensation for my losses.
December 17, 2008
My writings will go to new level, they will be charged. Which way and what mode, will be announced later. It is not secret, I sued Turner Broadcasting about their channel wide lying about my private details and over all, broadcasting my thoughts and private issues without any kind of permit or even reason to do so. Getting that other hour from Anderson Cooper is one solution, but certainly not all what I want.Looks like CNN, being headquartered in same metro area, where I have experienced all these work related problems, are actually brainwashed with same people, who gave trouble for me. It is advance of this country, that type of yelling and storytelling do not continue and that, there will be informational broadcasting from other type of source with real facts and papertrail proofs. TV should not work as a court, but any news, what are not correct can create couple more real court issues and could lead for serious fights and even to war. In my case, it just has happened like this. I see, it is responsibility of political leaders to discuss with involved parties, when lawyers and judges do not care about real facts or over all, how cases are handled. If they are always handled basing on what “biggest money wants or what loudest voices tell”, it is just like it was in 1800 century. So why we need courts, if they are only for rich people. They should be to everyone and proper legal help needs to be for everyone.. I have been couple times member of PreLegal services and their services did not offer legal help on time, when I did asked and needed. When I expressed legal problem, they just ended my membership and other one advised me change my name. Changing name got started that now so widely used “stunt and looks like persons”, who telling “I am real Tarja and you all know, she change her name” and pla pla plaa…That is why I always report back to highest level, what in real life is The White House and The Pentagon. In election rally time, I spread these informational letters to all major candidates, so both, new President and new Vice President has my contacts already and because my legal cases continue in Finland and in United States, because I keep filing them being so used and abused. I expect new administration realize I have done lot of work to report about these problems and my diplomacy with this issue should be noticed being now citizen and still able and willing to discuss both sides in both languages.
December 8, 2008
It is absolutely true, my life has been sinking last few years, because earlier problems did not be solved and I have been victim of crimes and most likely target for all kind of terrorists too. How recovery can take that long, when it was more than 5 years ago, when I still worked full time regularly, lived alone in my rented house and all bills was paid on time. All employments after that was so affected about that time and anybody did not want to discuss why. It is they fault, I have now so awful losses and no recovery to back or up in site. Now being citizen, it should be easier, when one background check is certainly wide enough to clear all rumors about illegalcy or imaginary crimes and accidents, what I have nothing to do with. All my efforts to get problems, before that, are not solved and what happened in 2003, just created more, being so many times attacked, when I looked jobs and housing in other places and later trips with business creates and investigations, what a hell that all is. I am sure, it is not joke, when rumors telling terrorists has been same way than me, but certainly not with me. I noticed, lot of traffic followed with me and sometimes I did reported it, but even radios and televisions all the time knew where I was, they did not care report that mess, what that all did - never let me live anywhere peacefully, not start work or business.
If Finns still charging me about something, I would like to know, what that was in 2003 or 1997, after when I was already ended my office work absentee time in good manner in papers and with people. Preventing me not to working in those years after 1995, it was so awful, when money was needed for daily life to get started and keep up bills. It is other people imagination, I could not pay my bills, I think my poor outfits and old cars told exactly, there was tight budget and continues job hunting, when one or other company did not needed anymore my hard working hands.
Hopefully now, I could get combination about new joblife, business and familylife. Familylife is not mean to bring unknown relatives here, for me it’s mean to get company and home, where is not need to be afraid about safety or is there place to stay next day. All stories about connection for Iraqis and other “from so different culture”, it is unbelievable, even I have seen in work environments people from everywhere. If they got my van, as rumors told, do not blame me, I did not look it after it was stolen from place where I left it. Some people are so against persons, who get attention, but not have money to buy that latest car and expensive looking clothes. That all has created for situations, invitations and even money, what suppose to coming to me, goes to somebody else, because they do not believe, I am that lady who wrote to The White House, Presidential electives and even leaders of other countries, because of this international situation and problems. My continues letters and emails and now log in this Reality page, telling all the time, how this all is grew and even, I have reported many issues earlier, there is not much help and explanations for my awful financial and isolated situation. My waits for court handling and compensation money put me sit at home and walking around neighborhood, because plans to buy profitable business drops for bad credit history and all that mess put all employers “just filing for couple months” my all applications. Just waiting “that prince show up” is not good idea, when “previous prince is involved with all kind of messes” and I have no other chance, that continue that friendship with fear and good behavior. Maybe Finns now understand, what their years secrets are created, no proper court handling, no proper healthcare services, no human rights to their own citizens. Stayed several months there, I really did see all kind of foreign and domestic issues, what were very serious and they did not wake up to handle them.
I already mentioned about reasons to choose my new first name, last name have also special reason to my new name. First, it looks like not used earlier and second, I have been so many times explained, how some unknown people knows how to "chance the weather" in places, where I have been. It cannot be surprise, there is some type of "rainmaker" knowledge, even I have no idea or connections for it other than "man made rain" has been used in my complicated situations. It is kinda of same than Build the Water!
December 7, 2008
It is Sunday again and time for latest comments for latest news. My efforts to get part of that real communication, what I count is, what TV’s and radios doing, because that is what the general population gets after “big boys keep talking”.My complicated situation get to meet those broadcasters just basing on this unreality, what others have had long time, this neverending attitude about my “horeness and imaginary thiefly habits”. If people counting living in same house with man, without being married or so called premarriages, what are so usual in Finland, is same than real “hooker stamp”, I think it is time to check up those cultural difference books and keep up on time, it is 2008 now. I already made decision changing my first name for Amanda, what mean all, who counts me as “just a hooker” go and lick that statue at Helsinki harbor. By the way, that lady is very famous, least now. What coming that "imaginary thief" part, I just yesterday saw it again. If I stop at the store and walk away, taking nothing or buying and paying something, those burglary alarms start ringing. They ring because this “device in my head can connect” to them and most store keepers already knows me everywhere and do that unneeded and very disturbing alarming for purposely, because I did stop to their store. That type of habit is so wrong, I never have had that type of problem - to take stuff from stores without paying. If I spend time or as Finns says “lorvin” at the stores, it is mark of boreness of jobs or in private life, because of some issues are not solved. It is very big problem now, because I am so well known here basing on my voice and reputation. Lately reason actually has been to find solutions using only pennies.
My latest video in Youtube states about my anger about situation, when I just became citizen of United States and I thought I could get started that better life some day and these old issues are past, I still need to handle bills what Finns keep sending about my stays there couple years ago, because I stayed longer time and kept looking chances for solution for these ongoing work place problems, what Atlanta area did not care to solve. I gave response, one new lawsuit for my former breeding employer, who did not care about this “thought reading” was used, as I can tell now later. All kind of “semenbottle rains and nightly secret inseminators” should not be anybody’s regular life – that all is related for sexual crimes and harassment. Finns are so concentrated about money, they make sure I cannot have or keep a job, but they want I paying. I do not disagree responsibility to pay regular bills, but same time some human rights and basic safety issues have to be solved first. And that have to happen before, they asking any kind of old bill to be paid. Some people still wanting me back to breeding field and I can tell, how it will go. Most likely I enjoy my country drives as I always do , but because my skills are more bad now and willing to get that smelly and sex related job is very low, because I already left it in good terms, when I made decision to jump to office and computer career and where I got training also. Marrying any countrysideboy will get same problems and their arrangements here, if these issues are not solved, I do not think these little villages are capable to handle crimes what Atlanta gangsters has done or my phonecalls to The White House, what I will continue to make, if this mess do not be solved properly. There is people here and there who just thinking, they could wipe out my 10 years and put me back to be that very little, shy and always friendly girl, who work and work and work what ever happened. It is time to wake up, that girl get hurt badly and she found out what type of abuse it has been awhile and giving these details years to leaders to “both sides” and becoming to this unwanted “unpaid rolemodel” position, it is step ahead not step back to back.
How I see this situation is, because Atlanta area did not handle properly my work and immigrant related issues, there was situation, all kind of “Russians and Iranians” started doing their own handling. It is responsible of that country, where they happened to handling them mainly and this case, because I did not know about this “thought reading” before I move to United States and I kept looking help here and they knew, but did nothing to help. All hospital stays and police reports are been useless and actually just put me harder situation, getting them angry about my efforts to solve these, because they did not have complete picture and even I told my part, there was no solution how to continue with all this abuse, without loosing jobs and housing all the time. Now I keep sending applications and letters, what may not go where they are addressed or addressees do not care to answer, because my poor situation. There is also a big problem, I do not get my mail and cannot always answer live phonecalls, because of this awful slow financial recovery. Some people still cannot believe, you cannot get calls to your cellphone, if you do not pay it! If you do not leave that message and number to my voice mail, I cannot call back. Using other people’s phones is not good solution, because they answer the phone and have no idea, for some people it means “some type of marriage”, if same phone works for many people. I have had long time solution for this problem, to get me own home, own phone, own car and own money from job and court compensations. It is very simple solution and it all basing on laws, my problems should be handled properly, but it just not happen. If I dealing mainly, because of my long term struggling and their interest, with “bears and other unwanted parties” so long they are United States citizens and following this country’s laws, it should be Ok. In this house, it has been mostly, I have been 99% right in disagreements, and we cannot count secrets, what other people do not tell.
My 50/50 solution with US and Europe and travel based art and business life did not happened, because of this terror continue and other people get my ideas, information and money with this thought reading system. It is so big abuse, not just mentally, but also financially, physically and with safety. Fact is, who created that system to me, can do that to any other persons too, first thing is find who did it and how it is done and who is responsible, why it was done and who pays the damage. Next similar cases are much easier to handle, because I spread that information, how it works, how it damages persons life and how it can be used for good. I purposely spread “good ideas” about finances, laws and rules, and of course about international relation issues. Because with immigrant joblife, there is always least one other party to battle, in my case, it is whole world. I stick with US and whole world watch how US can handle their own problems, it is that simple. I do not have problem to support US to fight with terror, I do not like some people fight first and then talk or even skip that talking part totally. I am that slow, I am still in step “talking part” and most possible, it will happen in nationwide TV, what whole world can see and listen. Then we could hopefully skip some of those physical fight steps also and get those Finnish parties for peaceful discussions. For me, it has been lately, they forgot, I want still to be alive!
December 2, 2008
Until face to face discussions start, I certainly continue in this arena, because I always clear the table rumors and opinions and I put puzzles together, what people creates related what I thinking and how different type of people reacts, when others creates imaginary stories, where all they think “I popping up same time”. That is all so unneeded hype, I can understand some people thinking, I see enemies and danger everywhere. Reality is, I have bad experiences, I got over the most bad time, I can stay home awhile and I can go out without running away. It is not real, I see enemies everywhere, but only those, who has experience of real danger or near to death situations, know, how it effects rest of your life, especially when you know it could happen anytime again. How you know, because you do not know! In reality, most problems coming from that fact, people around can tell where I am going to and who I planning to meet or what I planning to buy, what all is very, very, very, very annoying and stressful and makes me feel, when there is nasty people behind of corner, because their spread my plans to others. That is why that feeling never end and for others it looks like, she “just see danger everywhere”. Just stop that listening and broadcasting of them, then people cannot repeat, what I planning. Needless to say, I have no plans to destroy this world, not even myself, because I am peaceful person.
What coming to word Love, when some people has opinion, that all happened to me because I did not love! I could tell all kind of stories, how I expressed love, but it is not really necessary. What is the measure for love? Is it, if I say it, what makes it difference from lie? Or, is it if I do not speak with any other person, so I cannot think or see other people, then some people thinking, I most likely love only that person, who I talk with, because I depending for it. Is that some description to show love? For me, such of situation creates anger, being package for one person, because there is unwritten rules about imaginary marriage, what never happened, because he was more interested, what I thinking, than with who I spend time and made plans. If you limit other persons life by controlling their thinking, it will not work.
My idea about Love, is let other person be free to speak and meet other people and basically do what ever they want. If they care others feelings, they do not do bad things. Keeping partner happy, way what works and give freedom, it is Best Love, even if it leads for divorces or surprise pregnancies, between people, who stays too close too long at work or otherwise. Sooner or later they find out, if it was love, or was it foolish game, it is not meant to be love. It is not first time in the world, when woman keeps man on hold, because of unplanned baby. For me, looks like there is no Love available, because I am not willing to make unplanned or even planned babies to start love. It really should be planned together and better, if already wedded.
All Finns laughing loudly about my marriage problems without knowing, how much trouble certain type of religions brings to my situation. Would you be happy to stay at home without income or chances for a job and not be supported with marriage or person, who swears, you have home still tomorrow. For me, it has been like this lately, because some rebels wanted me out from job and I never got next so steady job anymore and date from personal site lead for long term dating, but never to marriage. I am free to leave to living at street, because courts did not want to handle my international problems. Problems, what actually are very serious crimes at work place and against privacy and some people thinking, it is just your imagination or for your safety. Bringing dates for other persons home is not good idea and not safe to anyone. So, do not count, who loves or who doesn’t, get those legal issues solved, then people can Love, who they want
Those, who still think "my sisters" can run my life from other country, without discussing with me, I have one comment - they are sick, even more ill, if they look help from eastern neighbors instead EU. I am private and free person to handle my own issues, but being so abused and crime victim, my private life is in hands of politicians. That is why I see rights to participate politics in United States (=US).
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