Sometimes it feels like bein"g an elephant in china store", when I doing even my usual "slow moving habits". Somewhere is a corner, what hits my butt, without I noticed it. And noise is like "thousand coffee cups been broken", when some groups cannot accept that difference what is my reality and their reality. Sometimes it could be find out easily be simple questions and proofs.
Being just few pounds more heavier than those days, when I worked full time with computers, sometimes it feels there is opinion I am too big for some places. I know, where I keep my butt and where I sit and with who, regardless those many rumors, what have been around me last couple years. That is why I feel it is necessary to mention about some rules what I still keep, even with ice melting pretty eyes. Being size of elephant, it takes awhile to warm up, and I know all good handlers understands that.
With that big, not so handsome nose, it is not always so easy to know, where you can put it. It is useful, when it is telling there has been something in air, what sticks and what makes that, nosesystem do not working as it should. That tells me, air didn't be safe and healthy for reason, what is hard to understand, when it is manmade. It is good, situations like that, so far, are reduced, what has been of most important reasons, why I keep complaining and keep moving around.
Most elephants looks lonely, but likes to stay free and environment where they feels to be as like at home. I have heard about this one, who is in the background, didn't be very happy in her new area, what was like place, where no'one likes to go, including me. Some people just thinking, it is easy solution sending unusual or too complicated individuals somewhere where nobody finds out or any others go, without good reason or thinking aftermath of that.
Being type of breed combination, what is not found from every zoo, I feel there is finally idea in least with some people, than I am worth of other look and even worth of listen what I say or write. After all that writing and singing and diplomatic journalism, what I have done especially in last couple years, it finally starts grow some pretty flowers for others to see and hear, even when I still somewhat sinking with this elephantic size and plastic frames.
In animal life elephants takes care about "smaller ones" just being big and scary getting headhunters staying out of homefield. With this title and order in pack population, it has been hard, because even you see there is danger, nobody else sees or understands it. All my hard work is like background work to get that original idea and reason for others knowledge, what should help when we thinking why things go like they go. And there are things what could be done , prevent that kind things not happen other time. Being that size than elephant is, there is no chance for too big noise or movement, because there has been all the time fear, it can"attack to feeders" some day, what never happened. Smart animals knows when to leave area before fear coming too big to handling. After all tours most people hopefully knows how "big and easy" behaves and that helps everybody.
Now, when main problems are seen by court is just guessing how they take it and how long it takes when all details are properly handled. Life cannot just be in idle until it is done, so I keep my instings up and passion to tell my ideas and that special touch for those things what are for me important and interested, including those "so surprising too bright pretty blue eyes"!
AS AN ELEPHANT
IN CHINA STORE
Photo taken in Finkand
by Tarja V Makinen
